its TOMORROW.

so, im having my final paper in less than 12 hours time.

and i am BLOGGING.

without actually ANY AT ALL intention to study.

seriously speaking, i am not looking forward in sitting this final paper.

which also means i dont even give a damn about it and not at all seriously study for it.

and this is exactly why i refuse to go back home back then in studying week.

because i will end up NOT STUDYING.

*sigh.

anyhow,

lets talk about the good things about tomorrow.

...

well, i finally will end up the 'PART ONE' title.

i hate it when the seniors do that, really.

WE ARE THE PARTONES, so??

hate it when they being so semester bias. -__-"

whatthehell, i am going to my second semester soon and the title will somehow DIMINISH.

aaand... 

i give my word, 

that i will not be so semester bias to my juniors later on.

BECAUSE I KNOW HOW MUCH IT ANNOYS YOU.

and i dont want to be UNlike.

cant wait to reach that pretty moments. :D

have a good day, readers!

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a happy day :)

me, him

why do you like me?

i dont like you, i love you.

<3

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missed out HOME.

i was talking about homesick earlier, back then when i was in Lendu. 

but its funny how i did not talk about home when i am here. :P

dah nak pergi balik lendu dah punn, baru nak teringatt. HAHA!

so, yes, talking about homee. <3

i am doing just perfectly fine here at home. well ofcourse, couldn't be better.

eventhough im a lil sad when my mom have to go someplace else for a week just when i reach here, but it was doing all fine. :)

i have my bed back. :D :D that is the best part.

i reunite all my bears back and i can see the happy look on their faces. ^^

i spend time with christina and her cousin, syazwani, but we just hang around the area. they planned to go out, and asked me to join but i prefer stay at home and cuddle my bearbear. :D

i have a major great time with my cat, BLACK, who have been a great company when my parents and older brothers off to work and the lil one disappear in school or somewhere else. 

thanks, black, i will always love youu. :)

and i have fun back to my old routine, which is cooking and i just enjoy doing it even sometimes they might say my cook sucks. -_-"

whatever.

so now, im looking forward to TEMBAK my final paper to end up my first sem in UiTM, and then, i can go gaga with my ke-AWESOME-ted bestfriends that i missed just so bloodyhell much, 

AINUR! BERNICE! LETS ROCK THE TIMES SQUARE AGAIN! 

aku nak jeritjerit lagi. :P

damn, i miss you guyss.

14th November, come faster, will ya?! 

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refresh

so, i make a whole new look for my bloggie. just getting sick of the old ones.
it is now 355am and i am still awake to wake my father up at 4 later, he needs to go someplace early for work.
whatever.
i couldn't sleep because i heard noises outside the house.
its pretty much scary.
PRETTY MUCH?
it scared the hell outta me!
erh.
i never heard weird noises at my house before.
i dont know why this time. -_-"
okay.
its already 400am. should go wake up my dad and SLEEP.
esok je la studyy. :P
nights :)

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im not a quitter

i promise to hold on, and that is how im gonna do it.
i promise to be strong, and that is how its gonna be.
i promise i'll stay, and you will see me nowhere else.
i promise i'd be happy and dont you ever turn that off.
i promise to smile, and that is only when i saw you smiling.
i promise stay out of misery and that is only if you be understanding.
i promise to be a good friend, and you can consider me as BFF.
i promise to be there when you need me, so, call me when you need a shoulder to cry.
i promise i'll hold your hand when you're lost and together we find our way home.
i promise i'll be good, but "good" seems not to be enough for them.
i promise to be myself, and with that, you still cant figure out who i really am.

PROMISE seems to be an easy word to say, but not an easy thing to keep. but you know that i will try to keep those promises we make and i do hope you keep your words too. im looking forward to have you in my life FOREVER. :)

dear you,

it have been one month ^^

loveyoulots

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lets make a wish upon the shooting star.

eh. tu kapal terbang laa. -_-"

patutla my wish never come true. 

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that is not my story tell

back then when i was a little, when every problem can be solve by ice-cream and chocolates, i glares at the people that seems to be "allergic" to ice-cream and chocolates.

BECAUSE I THINK ITS AWESOME!

and everyone have to just agree about what i think.

and when they dont.

it gets to my nerves.

sounds familiar?

well, yes, that is the typical me now, you can say.

i notice that sometimes.

but i seems to not give a damn about it.

but i guess its time to make some changes in life, dont you think?

sorry about that.

sorry about my awful flaws.

anywayssss.

i caught on a fever.

just a light fever, but it still could bring me down, tho.

*sigh.

now is 1.03am and i am blogging and hearing

The Only Exception fron Sam Tsui.

this guy can sing beautifully, no joke.

you should go watch.

back about my slight fever...

its deepavali and i slept the whole day today.

not really the whole day but, yea, you can say.

i still have not done unpacking stuff.

one more luggage to go.

the final one, i promise, :P

i should be studying since my finals have not ended.

one more paper to go and it is not so an easy paper and i am not that smart.

so i have to start studying.

and

and

and

and i miss you.

do well iin exams, yah?

:)



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may i give my word?

i, suhaida sulaiman, do solemnly swear

that i never gonna talk too much,

especially on pointing out others' mistakes,

giving advices,

and

speaking out my opinions.

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okay. lets keep it real.

i have an exam tomorrow.

well, it is quite important.

IT IS THE FINAL EXAM.

and the problem is, i am not myself.

i should stop whining about home.

i should stop thinking about the unnecessary things.

i should stop expect too much from ... whatever.

i should stop worry about making mistakes.

i should start being myself again.

and do i need a reason for that?
yes, because i have a FREAKING EXAM tomorrow.

i should just stop this whole bullshiting stuff that have been come across my way.

maybe this is just because of the homesick.

so, lets ignore it a while.

lets talk about something else.

i dont wanna sound lame,

so i really should stop writting eventhough i actually have alot to tell.

i guess i have to hold it back, still.

have a good day, readers.

perhaps if you do have a good day, i will too.

lotsofhearts.

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can you be more sensible?

empty.
zero.
*cricketsound*




























you really should stop playing with words
and start prooving me that your words is true.

dont make me start wondering.

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