good day, yes?

bangun pagipagi,

decided nak amik wuduk kat luar.

sejuk gilee..

tapi sangat best XD

ade bulan.

sangat besar and orange.

cantik tapi menakutkan.

haha.

prepare breakfast untuk adik,

and teman diorang pergi sekolah.

walaupun mereka sangat mangkuk, buli saya pagipagi,

tapi terima kasih kerana buat saya ketawa pagipagi tu.

:)

abah tak kerja harini.

so, kami berdua tengok movie samasama.

TAK, BUKAN CERITA SAW!

-.-

cerita yang sangat kelakar dan BEST.

bukan cerita bongok tu la kan.

-.-

banyak kott cerita kitorang tengok.

hidustan,

adnan sempit,

just my luck.

haha

seronokseronok.

next, my tuition students came.

jessica dengan gembiranya tunjuk aku paper maths die yang sangat improved. 

a srtong C looks like a good start, since she NEVER did passed before :)

tapi english, masih lemah la kan, malas la nak cerita.

haha.

apa apa pun, semua ni membuatkan saya lebih bersemangat untuk mengajar die.

yang sorang lagi, kimberly ni...

saya tak tau la kan.

dia macam sukasuka die nak datang ke tak,

so, susah sikit nak control.

harini, saya tak masak keseorangan.

abah ada untuk membantu.

haha.

basicly today, kami semua makan air tangan abah.

haha.

sedapsedap.

:))

lepas tu, samasama kemas bilik ngan along.

baju die, SEBEBAN nak di-donate-kan kepada orang yang lebih memerlukan.

buat penuh almari jee..

-.-

tolong adik buat homework.

muka pun dah nampak sangat pemalas.

tapi kena la paksa jugak, 

dah nak upsr kan..

:)

biarla push sikit XD

sekarang, blogging.

sambil chatting dengan rakanku yang sangat tersayang.

:)

bukannye takde perkara yang menyakitkan hati.

tapi, saya sedang belajar untuk tidak ambil peduli.

i SERIOUSLY dont care.

you mean it or not, i dont care.

:)

there is too much happiness in my life to think over the sad part.

i dont need you.

:)

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will this makes you feel better?

i am ALWAYS scared

afraid of A LOT of things.

sometimes i even afraid to talk, because it might hurt.

sometimes i even afraid to think, because it might turn out to be WRONG.

i'm afraid to walk away, because i'm afraid i might lose you COMPLETELY.

i'm afraid to tell you i lke you too because i'm afraid i might dont mean it.

i DONT KNOW how to hate.

seriously, no.

the only one i can say i HATE now is,

MY BROTHER'S GF.

but then, still, i go to her and salam her when she stop by the house.

-_-

maybe i dont find the REALLY right person to hate. haha.

i PRETEND to be happy, to LET GO of the misery.

and sometimes, it does works.

sometimes, i do feel happy FOR REAL.

no joke :)

pretending is not ALWAYS a bad thing.

but its MOSTLY not a good thing.

sometimes its ok if you wanna PRETEND that you care about me, so i can find out and give you a slap.

haha.

no, i mean it.

i observe people,

i read their stories,

i learn their mistakes,

so that my life will turn out to be better.

but sometimes, i do feel that i'm FAR worst than they are.

i've been hurted too, darling.

well, yes, pretty badly.

its not so easy to let go, you know.

because you believe and you was hoping.

but now, i am strong enough to let it go.

i know its only something we went tru as we grow up.

and i'm glad i will still have him as my friend.

sayang, just be glad that our lives couldn't be any worse.

love your life.

forget the jerks that hurt you.

will always be there to support you.

love you loads.

:))

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review

i have a beautiful name

which match PERFECTLY with my father's name.

i am 17 years + 8months old.

and the youngest among my bestie.

have a happy family.

love them all.

even though i have annoying brothers.

but i like to be annoyed by them sometimes :))

i have awesome frens.

who i love loads...

not sure how my life will turn up without em :))

i had a kind of sickness before.

which is called

WWS

or weird when sick.

but now, no more edi ah.

because now, according to my frens,

I'M WEIRD ALL THE TIME.

frens called it weird.

i call it SPECIAL

thankyou, thankyou.

:)

i have a pet.

a black with a beautiful long fur named

black -.-

an old cat, actually. 

but very manja an CLEVER :)

 my free-time doings:

reading books.

stalk over my frens on fb.

singing to my self.

listen to pretty songs.

facebook-ing

blogging.

chatting with frens.

disturb my brothers playing games and have fun defeated by em. -.-

EAT.

sleep.

surf the net, find out about things i read in the books and magazines.

currently single.

have been single since 2007.

and not interested to be in any relationship for the time being

because

I'M HAVING FUN BEING SINGLE.

XD

i love my life.

i love who i am.

:)

alhamdulillah.

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pms ke? o.o

saya, dia

ade ....... tak?

ade kot. nape.

nak tengok la.

buat ape?

nak tengok aje la.

sebab saya baru je buat.

nak tengok je macam mane awak buat.

tak nak bagi takpela.

gtg, bye...

hak ela.

ape masalahnye?

since now you dah not single,

tak boleh dah la nak gurau2 and borakborak ngan you?
-___-

fine.

don't care.

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seriously? idc. -_-

its not like we are STILL in 2005 when you can just fool me around.

and be proud of what you have that i dont.

GET A LIFE.

and just PLEASE get off mine.

 

i'm NOT that little girl anymore...

 

 

 

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the last song ever..... :)

yesterday you were mine

today you are hers.

tomorrow you might be alone.

yesterday i was your girlfriend

today i am your best friend

tomorrow i might not exist in your life.

yesterday you gave me love songs

today you give me sad songs.

tomorrow you might get tired singing for me

yesterday you promised me to tell about her

today i look like fool because i am NOT FULLY AWARE ABOUT HER.

tomorrow you might fool me around knowing i was badly in love with you.

yesterday you told me you dont remember when you get together with her

today i found out you were celebrating your ANNIVERSARY with her

tomorrow you might hide MORE SHITS from me.

yesterday you said you were sorry

today you think it was my mistake.

tomorrow you might blame it all on me.

yesterday i thought you were different

today you REALLY show me a totally different side of you

tomorrow i might dont know who you are anymore

yesterday you had me as someone that loves you DAMN-LOT

today you hurt my feelings

tomorrow you might feel what i felt

yesterday i loved you the way that no-one can ever imagine.

today i'm walking away, getting over you

tomorrow i might walk pass by you, not even realizing that you are there

yesterday i was hoping we would be back together.

today i'm hoping that i can get over you

tomorrow i might be hoping that we never were together.

yesterday i said I LOVE YOU

today i say I'M OVER YOU.

tomorrow i might have NOTHING left to say to you....

 THANK YOU.

i missed you.

i loved you.

AND IT FELT SO GOOD TO USE THE PAST TENSE!

(:

i try harder this time.

and i did it...

thanks, darling, for taking my blindfold off

and for helping me get over you.

appreciate that, really. :)

here is the LAST SONG EVER.... for you :)

thanks for the memories..

now that its all said and done

i cant believe you were the one

to build me up and tear me down

like an old abandoned  house

and what you said when you left

just left me cold and out of breath

i fell too far was in way too deep

guess i let you get the best of me

well, i never saw its coming,

i should've started running

A LONG LONG TIME AGO...

and i never thought to doubt you

i'm better off without you,

more than you, more than you know

i'm slowly getting closure

i guess its really over

I'M FINALLY GETTING BETTER

now i'm picking up the pieces

and spending all of these years

PUTTING MY HEART BACK TOGETHER

cause the day i thought i'd never get through,

I GOT OVER YOU!

you took a hammer to these walls

dragged the memories down the hall

packed your bags and walk away

there was nothing i could say

and when you slammed the front door shut

A LOT OF OTHERS OPEN UP

so, dig my eyes

so i could see

THAT YOU NEVER WERE THE BEST FOR ME

well, i never saw its coming,

i should've started running

A LONG LONG TIME AGO...

and i never thought to doubt you

i'm better off without you,

more than you, more than you know

i'm slowly getting closure

i guess its really over

I'M FINALLY GETTING BETTER

now i'm picking up the pieces

and spending all of these years

PUTTING MY HEART BACK TOGETHER

cause the day i thought i'd never get through,

I GOT OVER YOU!!

well, i never saw it coming,

i should've started running

A LONG LONG TIME AGO...

and i never thought to doubt you

i'm better off without you,

MORE THAN YOU, MORE THAN YOU KNOW!

well, i never saw it coming,

i should've started running

A LONG LONG TIME AGO...

and i never thought to doubt you

i'm better off without you,

more than you, more than you know

i'm slowly getting closure

i guess its really over

I'M FINALLY GETTING BETTER

now i'm picking up the pieces

and spending all of these years

PUTTING MY HEART BACK TOGETHER

well, i'm putting my heart back together

cause i got over

i got over you...

I GOT OVER YOU!!

cause the day i thought i never get through

i got over you....

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tak faham

if u love him so much?

why you want to marry some other guy?

maybe for you, it is nothing.

i dunno what were you thinking.

BUT FOR ME, IT IS A SERIOUS PROBLEM!
you told me that you just SAYANG him.

tak de niat nak together balik.

but.

according to what i saw.

i think u lied.

YOU WAS HOPING THAT YOU NEVER DID BROKE UP WITH HIM.

why would you do that if you no longer in love with him?

honey,

MARRIAGE

is not a game.

it is about spending YOUR LIFETIME to that one particular guy.

dont you think you just need MORE time to think about it?

i mean, its not thet you are old.

YOU MADE A BLOG ABOUT HIM.

well, its not something new.

but, YOU ARE GETTING MARRIED THIS WEEKEND, 

AND THE BLOG IS STILL ACTIVE.

you know what i wonder?

i can see it in your eyes that you still love him.

and the way you tell me about him, i think he still loves you too.

i dont get it why you two cant work out and you just have to get married so fast.

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GONE

it feels like i don't know you anymore.

is that normal?

o.O

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u said........

 its wasting time.

all the others think its wasting time.

all the others agree with me.

even one of the teacher over here when i talked personally to him.

i just wanna go home,

be with my family again.

go... GO!

GO BE WITH YOUR FAMILY!

amalia, lai yi, sumaiyaa, jaspreet, melissa and my other frens sume bawak mak bapak die duduk sana...

-_-

urgh!! I DONT BOTHER!!!! 

xO

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sorry, no?

hey there.

whats up?

how have you been doing over there?
having a hard time?

stuck in a place you dont like?

stuck in a place where you NEVER wanna be?

guess what?

been there.

not THERE which is where u are rite now.

but in that kind of situation.

and guess again,

THAT situation,

where i felt so awkward and HATE most,

actually

had BROUGHT ME TO YOU.

you have been such a baby.

i always stands up for you when my frens think so,

BUT I THINK I HAVE TO AGREE WITH THEM NOW.

i am sorry.

jeez,

my GIRLfrens are doing FINE with their lives when they are at the same place with you.

well, look around,

those people around you are eating the same thing,

doing the same routine,

facing the same jerks.

so, what the hell?

what is there about you that you wanna cry about?

you have frens,

you told me that you are KINDA famous among the girls.

well, it sounds like the girls are doing fine than you. -_-

stop making a big fuss about it.

fyi, i wanted to go to where you are at now.

i really wanted to see how things are like around there.

well, of course not anymore, but it doesn't matter.

you are stronger than that,

you survive a strange sickness,

you have felt so much more pain,

been tru more hard times with jerks.

just take them as a practice for you to face the REAL WORLD, you know.

take it as an opportunity that not everyone had that chance.

i know, i know.

i am NOT the one that have to eat shits everyday.

not the one that have to face those jerks everyday.

not the one that have to be a prisoner and have bad day EVERYDAY.

but you should so know,

THAT YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

there are others that DONT WANT IT TOO.

feel the same way that you do.

but they go tru with it.

i am sorry.

but even if i could help you.

i wouldn't.

because, yes, it is stupid.

I WOULD BE THE STUPID ONE AGAIN.

you mentioned about the blog,

you talked to me,

you asked me to help you to do things,

as if like i am going to sacrifice FOR YOU.

no, sayang.

you got that wrong.

because FIRST OF ALL,

i am soo getting over you.

as a matter of fact, it feels like i AM over you.

because you shove me away,

silently.

and i am not too dumb, NOT TO REALIZE.

one more thing,

you are out when you shouldn't have.

I TOO, WOULD BE DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU.

so make a choice.

come back and tell them that you GAVE UP,

you have been the BIGGEST LOSER,

tell them that you have been CRYING to get out of there.

and you just RUN AWAY.

like a little girl.

and perhaps SEE OTHER GIRLS

that probably decided to stay there and FACE IT.

OR STAY.

and come back,

and tell them that YOU SURVIVED THE HELL.

and it feels so good to be one of the one that would 

EAT THOSE SHITS

AND FACE THOSE JERKS EVERYDAY

and i am still alive.

and stronger.

one of my fren had been sent to SABAH.

my another fren's camp is located next to a CHICKEN FARM

and you would want to imagine the smell and the flies.

just be glad that things are nothing more worst for you. 

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well, HELLO!!!

hey, there.

i said

CONGRATULATIONS ,

you know.

if you dont understand what that means,

it means 

TAHNIAH

dalam bahasa melayu.

a lil reply says 'ty', wud be nice!! -_-"

mentang mentang kau dapat matrix, and aku tak dapat.

kau dah bagus sangat la?

hak ela.

forget it.

i dont need hypocrites like you...

-_-

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why-oh-why?

kepada semua kawan-kawanku....

ya-Allah, saya minta maaf...

first of all, 

to you Bernice.

i am sorry for not texting or calling you more often.

but, you know, it thought you'd be busy with all your collage stuff and all.

and things had been a lil more tight for me lately.

dont post something like that on your blog,

it makes me cry...

my phone is out of credit because i called amal yesterday.

and i need to cut out my spending...

will give you a ring sometimes..

well, i dont mean ring, RING, i mean..........

oh, you know what i mean...

and Christina, you are next.

sorry, i cant follow you to sunway the other day.

i know we rarely go out together but,

my life is more than just going out and waste time, darling.

i mean, we can spend EVERYDAY together.

and i know you just want me to follow because you need company to go and come back from sunway, and have fun with YOUR friends the other time.

i am not like you.

i can know what you have in mind just by the way you talk to me.

i am sorry things aren't like what you want it to be.

but things are not the way i wanted them to be too...

(':

oh, ainur.

what happen to you?

its so bad to be the last one to find out that you are not okay...

i'm sorry i cant pick up the phone when my boss is right in front of me.

i'm sorry i cannot call you back because i am out of credit.

i'm sorry i couldn't talk to you yesterday because my dad suddenly home early and he just came to me and asked me to "HELP" him cook.

i'm sorry i couldn't talk to you at night because my ym is a total pain in the ass even they dont have any.

i'm sorry i couldn't tlk to you AGAIN this morning because my dad was doing something with the pc.

i am on now.

BUT WHERE ARE YOU??

i am sorry my dear frens....

but i do have my hard times too.

but there are just somethings that you want to do sooo damn bloody hell much.

but you just cant.

for some reason that

YOU JUST CANNOT COMPLAIN ABOUT.

(failed to upload tina's picture)

sorry for not being there when i should have.

i'm such a jerk.

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me and pahang : story dua

*ehermeherm*

crite ni ngarut sikit ah kan.

well, alkisahnya, dah berlaku sejak tahun lepas la.

makcik saya ni ade satu jiran ni.

anak die, sangatlah comel.

well, ac2ly, to be honest,

saya dah lupa pun macam mana rupa mamat ni.

the last time saya tengok muka dia dari dekat was actually masa raya, i think 2 @ 3 tahun lepas.
he is cute la.

but as i said, i have forgotten how he look like now.

well, oleh kerana tak ada hiburan lain semua, saya pun salu cakap makcik saya,

"makcik ade jiran yang sangat comel"
dan sejak itu, makcik saya pun selalu la kacau saya dengan die,

alah, saje, main2, kan...

saya pun tak kisah laa.

since nenek saya tinggal sekali dengan makcik saya,

die pun kadang2 terdengar la juga kan.

pernah sekali la, 

looooong ago,

 nenek actually berkata begini.

"kaklang, selalu ke telefon telefon budak atas tu?"

"budak mana ni, nek?"

"budak yang duduk depan rumah, atas tu. yang duk belajar kat KL tu"

*garu kepala*

"nenek cakap ape ni? kaklang tak pernah borak pun dengan die"

"oh, tak de ke?"
*gelak*

"nenek, kaklang dengan makcik semua gurau ajalah, tak ada apa2 pun"

"tapi kalau hang kawan dengan dia pun bagus gak, budak tu belajar tinggi, blablabla"
*tepuk dahi dan dengo je lah nenekku tersayang membebel*

and last year, after last paper, chemistry,

the exactly next week, one of my cousin is getting married,

so, after the wedding, i planned to stay at my auntie's house at pahang, 

just for fun la kan.

so my daddy, 

is acting weird.

right before i am about to put my bags inside my auntie's car.

kaklang, sini jap.

ape?

kaklang ade ke, msg2 budak yang kat rumah makcik tu?

budak mana ni abah?
alaa, yang duk kat depan umah makcik tu la, yang kat atas bukit tu.

-.- abah, ape la yang abah merepek ni? even nama die kaklang tak tau, macam mane nak mesej?
oh, tak tau eh?

 -.-

i was actually kinda pissed because i thought he thought i want to go to my untie's house so much because of him.

you know, because of guys.

but then.

that is not it.

when i found out a lil something about it from my grandmother.

hari tu, ayah dia ada tanya pasai hang.

sape, nek?

tu, budak atas tu..

o.O tanya apa?
tanya hang la, merisik la tu.

.!!!???!!!!?????!!!!

nenek dah dok cakap dah, hang dok blajaq lagi. die kata, tapo ah, blaja pun tak kisah ah, kawan2 la dulu.

omg seriously???

well, that is the main point actually,

yang lain tu, tak perlu lah kaan?

-.-

itulah kisahnya.

saya dirisik oleh ibu dan ayah dia.

at first, it i think its scary.

and then i think its weird.

and the next thing, i think its stupid.

i mean, we are not living in those days anymore!
if you wanna get to know me, jees, just came and ask for my number.

seriously, omg.

i would give you, you know -.-

tak payahlah hantar your parents and all..

-.-

it creeps me out laaa... -.-

-.- 

-.-

aduyai...

anyways,

when i was in pahang for interview that day.

they was there, you know.

i mean, they actually live in KL. they just went there sometimes, when they wanna runaway from the busy city

so, menurut nenek, memang dah lama la mereka kat situ kan.

tapi, tak pernah pulak nak singgah,

just say hye, and stuff like that.

that day,

DIA BOLEH DATANG RUMAH PULAK!
dah la, sampaisampai kuantan je, nenek saya,

"kaklang, nama die faiz"

"siapa nek?"

"tu, yang kat depan rumah tu, faiz namanya"
-.-

another F

-.-

-.-

tension2.

seriously ke diorang ni?
saya nak sambung blaja dulu ah..

g cari orang lain.

saya dah ketakutan dah nak g umah makcik saya.

@.@

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me and pahang : story satu

yes, as i said, i have to go for an interview at pahang. so, friday night, 9th april, 

me, angah, adik, abang, abah and emak

memboloskan diri dalam kereta untuk ke pahang.

ramai kan?
macam nak pergi kenduri kahwen XD

angah kene ikut, untuk jadi the second driver.

mak kene ikut because she is my best fren.

adik2 kene ikut sebab diorang kecoh -.-

anyway,

basically,

I DIDN'T SLEEP THE WHOLE NIGHT.

abah bertolak dalam pukul dua, sebab katanya penat, nak tidur dulu..

saya anak yang baik, saya akur je la.

abah minum nescafe sebelum pergi, saya yang ingatkan milo, minumlah sekali.

dah habis satu cawan baru perasan -.-

2.00 am, kami pun berangkat.

since i drank nescafe,  + i was nervous + i HAVE to HAVE the cappucino my daddy had when we stopped by petronas station ryte before genting sempah, I HAVE PROBLEM SLEEPING..

ITS TASTES AWESOME!!

seriously, no joke.

murah plak tu...

nak lagi ni.... XD

sharp 6.00 am, sampai lah kami di rumah makcik.

since dah pukul nam, saya tidak lah tidur + penangan nescafe and cappucino masih lagi kuat.

jadi pukul 7.00 am tu, saya pun bertolaklah ke UiTM pahang
masih lagi nervous bersama rasa tidak suka dengan kampus pahang UiTM dan tertanya-tanya adakah saya akan belajar di sini??
-.-

dekat UiTM pahang ade 2 interview je.
for seni bina and mass comm je.
interview for seni bina ramai giler kowt!!
-.-
mass comm 15 orang je....
tapi semua
i mean, seriously,
SEMUA
mamat yang pergi interview mass comm tu, adalah dalam 8 orang,
SEMUA
SEMUA COMEL+HANDSOME+APA SAHAJA YANG SAMA WAKTU DENGANNYA
seriously.
XD
memang tak de keje. haha!
tak kisah la kan.
jadi, dalam pukul 9.00 tu barulah interviewer tu sampai.
dan FOR SOME FREAKING REASON,
we just HAVE to climb up to the 4th level just to don an ujian bertulis that only takes about 30 freaking minutes.
sampai je tingkat 4, semua semput XD

the writing test was nothing much, actually.
just write an autobiography essay to describe yourself, why you choose mass comm and your aspiration.
and i think i did it well.
at least, i am not worry about it XD

the test ended at about 9.30 am.
next, is the interview. skip the long part which is,
MY INTERVIEW IS AT 1.00++ PM
just do the math,
9.30 am - 1.00++pm.
just count how many hours i have to wait.
ok, let me tell you,
ALMOST FOUR FREAKING HOURS.
and i just CANT go anywhere because i am afraid that they will call out my name.
-.-
i do make some frens.
and of course, all of them is from pahang.
ALL OF THEM asked me why i came ALL THE WAY TO PAHANG FOR THIS INTERVIEW. when i can just CALL and do the interview at PJ.
and i told them i DID called and i cant change it.
AND THEY SAY THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE.
and i dont wanna ask why because i know it wud make my angry, since I DID NOT SLEEP FOR THE WHOLE DAY!!
-.-
looking at all the boys and my other girlfrens came out from the room, pissed off,
and still looking nervous, and scared,
ana etc etc,
I STARTED FIDGETING.


hungry+sleepy +tired,
at 1.06pm,
my name was FINALLY called.
its actually an couple interview, so my partner is one smart girl from smk TENGKU KURSHIAH.
*ehermeherm.*
no, she din steal my spotlight.
we have an equal compliment.
okok.
this is how it goes.

me, interviewers, partner

assalammualaikum,

assalammualaikum

waalaikumsalam, eh, awak ni yang saya nampak kat disko megamall semalam kan, lompat2, menari2 semua.

no, that's impossible because yesterday i was in selangor and i just arrived at pahang at 6.00 am this morning.

and he ask the exact same question to my partner, and she started laughing.

no, sir. this whole singing and dancing and loud music is so not my thing i am certain that you got the wrong girl.

*nodnod*

so, tell me about yourself, siti sara (partner)

blablabla (memang panjang giler ah)

*smile sweetly the whole time*

okay, what about you, suhaida?
okay, my name is siti suhaida biti sulaiman. i am going-to-be 18. i am a formal student of ...

GOING-TO-BE 18??
errr... yes.

so, awak belum lagi 18.

no, but i am turning 18 this year.

nono, we cant take students below 18 years old.

*smile because i realize that they are just playing around*

habis tu, macam mana?

awak, sara?

i am also 17 and a half.

oh, pun belum 18 jugak?

no, but we are 18 this year.

if you count the year, 2010-1992, we are 18.

eh, tak boleh, tak boleh. macam ni lah, kamu berdua ambil sijil ni, pergi balik rumah, next year punya interview baru datang balik jumpa kami.

aha.

no, we're not going anywhere.

*laugh and nod*

ok, what do you want to do in mass comm, sara?

journalism.

suhaida?
journalism as well.

what did jounalist do?

go around the world, observe people, write about what they saw, that other people might not get the chance to see, write about what they want to tell others.(tembak je actually)

*nodnod*

ok, suhaida, awak jadi reporter, interview sara tentang isu semasa sekarang.

ISU SEMASA? *otak blank*

haa, apa isu semasa sekarang. okay, saya bagi awak lah, buang bayi.

hye, siti sara, i am suhaida from THE STAR newspaper. i would like to ask for your opinion about the current popular issues that is....

THROWING BABIES.

*paused* 

DUMPING and ABANDONING babies

*nodnod*

blablabla

blablabla

*the interviewers is not even listening, talking to each other*

thank you, siti sara, for your time and and splendid opinion.

thank you to you too.

oh, yes, thank you, thank you, you both.

um bagus la korang ni. memang student macam ni lah yang kitorang nak. cakap pun confident, takde yang tersangkut-sangkut. kalau nak buat presentation depan orang semua, tak adalah macam tunggul kayu je depan dewan tu nanti.

um. boleh la macam ni, see you next sem.

o.o

o.o

kami taknak lah ada orang nanti tanya korang siapa yang interview korang dulu ni? student macam ni, bagi masuk mass comm? kalau korang bagus, diorang tak tanya tau tak?

kalau korang bagus, diorang tanya pulak.

tu yang kami tak nak tu.

tapi kamu memang bagus la.

ok, bagus, see you next sem.

INSYAALLAH, kalau diluluskan. 

*smile innocently*

-.-

ok, ada apa2 soalan?

uitm pahang tak ada mass comm ke?

no no, tak ada. mass comm hanya ada di uitm shah alam dengan melaka sahaja. tapi shah alam hanya dibuka untuk pelajar ijazah.

so, melaka only la.

*nodnod*

oh (dengan muka penipu) sekarang kuching sarawak ada buka course baru, that is mass comm, so maybe, kamu yang baru2 ni akan dihantar ke sana.

oh, that's good, we can go travel, meet new place.

yes. i dont mind travelling.

*muka give up dah.*

tapi kalau korang bagus dalam diploma mass comm for the 3rd or 4th semester, korang maybe boleh just jum over ke uitm shah alam and straight away buat degree.

oh, that's cool.

yes, that is definitely..................cool.

o.o

ok, thank you for your time, and goodluck.

yes, thankyou.

thank you, have a nice day.

thanks so much

and that is it.

and i feel good. :)

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b***hes wannabe

yesterday, christina and i was doing our favourite activity;

PERGI KEDAI

-.-

how pathetic.

anyway,

there's only one way we always follow to the shop la,

of course we can take other ways but the way we always took is convenient for us la.

so,

there is a family, living there, somewhere along the way we usually walk tru.

and they have two lovely daughters, the eldest is form 1, which if i am not mistaken, named SABRINA, and the other girl is still a primary school girl.

well, yesterday, as usual, i was heading to shop with tina,

her parents always say hye to me and tina when we passed,

so yesterday, when we passed, i was looking in the house la, wondering if the uncle is somewhere in the house so i can smile at him like i always did.

but when i look, there is this chinese girl, showing me her "angry" face that if you wanna translate it in words, its sounds something like,

"what are you looking at, bitch?"

and the chinese girl is actually only Sabrina's fren.

but then, naive me, straight away look at tina, wondering if she is someone tina know that she might just wanna play around with us but tina is not even looking into the house. o.o

so, i showed my poker face and just walk and decided to forget about it.

but then, when we were heading home,

well, of course, we have to pass there again,

and this time, they are outside, at the lawn,

tina and i was just walking and gossipping, minding our own buisness when i heard the chinese girl say something like

"bodoh, b*b*, sial,"

and few more malay cursing words.

i was shocked because

I AM MALAY, AND I NEVER USE THAT KIND OF WORDS,

i mean, bodoh tu biase ah kan.

yang lain tu, 

and the other thing is,

THEY ARE ONLY FORM ONE!! -.-

at first, i thought they were having this small fight, 

or, cursing the stone, or the grass or anything irrelevant

or cursing to each other, because, you know, these days, they always call their best frens slut and stuff...

but when i glance at them, they doesn't show any sign of any of that at all. they were just sitting down, doing nothing.

so, i whisper to tina,

"i think they are cursing me"

and tina was like

"whaat?"

and i turn behind at them,

and guess what,

THE CHINESE GIRL SHOW ME MIDDLE FINGER,

-.-

-.-

-.-

for a moment, i was speechless.

okay,lets put it this way.

number one,

I NEVER DID TALK TO THE SABRINA GIRL, IF SHE HATES ME SO MUCH

number two,

I AM NOT EVEN SURE WHAT HER NAME IS

number three,

IT IS NOT THAT I AM WALKING TO THE SHOP EVERYDAY WEARING HOT PANTS AND SLEEVELESS THAT YOU CAN PERHAPS CALL ME A SLUT.

number four,

I DONT EVEN KNOW THE FREAKING CHINESE GIRL!! i mean, yesterday was the first time i EVER saw her -.-

number five,

THEY ARE FREAKING FORM ONE!! 

-.-

apelah nak jadi dengan budak2 zaman sekarang ni kaan. -_-

oklah, i will tell you ine thing.

when i was really close with fairuz,

he actually told me before that this Sabrina girl like him.

that is actually how i know her name.

anyways,

according to him,

she got ask him for his phone number before,

but fairuz say he have no time to entertain small kids

-.-

so, there is one more indian guy, named Dinesh,

he becomes fairuz's replacement la...

dia la yang layan si Sabrina ni instead of fairuz.

and if you ask, dinesh ni memang comel la, tapi fairuz is more good looking la.

and when i started following tina to shop, and sometimes i passed there when i am home from school, 

this dinesh guy also tryna flirt on me before la. 

tapi its just like for fun la, kan.

macam budak2 lelaki biase bile jumpe budak perempuan, tanya dari mane sume..

-.-

and i think that is why sabrina ni tak suka i.

dan menurut fairuz,

she can be a b***h, you know.

and i take that as a joke because seriously, when fairuz told that, SHE WAS IN STANDARD SIX!
i still saw her wearing the DARK BLUE SCHOOL UNIFORM -.-

but above all,

IT WAS ALL LAST YEAR!!

the last time i ever saw fairuz was on my birthday.

and i NEVER EVER did walk passed her house, with fairuz, holding hands, or anyhting like that.

i mean,

FAIRUZ AND I NEVER DID WALK TOGETHER IN FRONT OF HER HOUSE,

SHE NEVER DID SAW MW AND FAIRUZ TOGETHER. 

-.-

so, what is her problem?

jeez, get over it.

benda cerita lama la.

if you want fairuz now, go ahead, take him.

if he really did like you pun last time, he wont ask for my number... -_-

and sabrina,

i am sorry la if i am so cuter than you XD
its ok, you will grow up and maybe become prettier than me.

for now, just get your own life, and hands off others.

just go grow up, and dont have to think about being a b***h.

you are a nice girl, i believe that.

so, dump you pathetic fren, she is a bad influence.

-.-

grow up, keyh?
and

GET A LIFE!

-.-

 

 

i'm pissed off.

you mess with the wrong girl, darling.

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ada ape dengan INTERVIEW??

aduyai...

kemangkukan aku terserlah pla pulak kali ini.. 

-.-

ok, beginilah kisahnya,

masa isi borang upu fasa pertama tu,

aku isi masa dekat kuantan,

dengan makcik aku yang berada di sebelah la kan.

lepas tu,

makcik aku bagi this BRILLIANT idea,

'kaklang, letaklah alamat rumah makcik.'

and aku yang naive lagi menunjukkan muka yang sangat baik tu.

'eh. tak pe ke? bukan kena ikut ic ke?'

dan dengan confidentnya, makcik aku jawab,

'tak lah, kaklang ingat kalau isi kL, die bagi ipta kat kL ke? isi pahang, at least ade banyak choice,'

memandangkan masa tu kami dekat cc, sebab rumah makcik aku takde net, 

ramai budak2 bujang yang tengah main game.

aku pun tak nak la bergaduh dengan makcik aku.

jadi, aku pun taip la alamat rumah makcik aku.

dan aku memilih mass comm.

dan mass comm ade interview.

dan sekarang

INTERVIEW 

AKU 

DEKAT

UiTM CAWANGAN BUKIT SEKILAU, KUANTAN, PAHANG! 

-.-

aku call makcik aku semalam dan dia gelak tak henti2.

aku dah call mamat yang terlibat tu tapi die cakap tak boleh tukar.

jadi, aku akan ke pahang esok.

haih.

mangkuk, mangkuk.

-.-

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another birthday

i never had a proper post for you, ryte?

so this time its for you.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, FAIRUZ!! XD

you are finally 17, kan?

sekarang you dah sama umur dengan i!

haha.

we never did have this conversation about age, kan?

maybe adelah, but mostly i tak kisah, because i know that you are only my fren.

i still remember, tho, the first time we met.

actually, back then i ingat you Indian.

not to be racist, but i never pay much attention to you realizing that you are an Indian.

until one day, when i was walking with tina, and we met you.

for some reason, you talked to me.

eh, you melayu ke?

ye, saya melayu. kenapa?

no, i thought you are christian or anything.

no, i'm malay

name sape?

suhaida.

oh, saya fairuz.

omg, you melayu ke?

haha. yes. myanmar mix actually, mak melayu, ayah myanmar.

i see..

...

...

eh, sape name you tadi?

suhaida.

su.. hai.. da... ?
*nodnod*

nice name.

thanks. :)

i tak lupa lah, fairuz

 i still thought the days we hang out together is fun.

sometimes we are not even talking, and i just laugh for no reason at all.

the day that i was sitting right next to you and you actually texted me to tell me that you think i look so pretty that day.

and i think that is cute, serious.

when you keep buying me BIG bar of black forest Cadbury chocolate with intention to make me appear FATTER. -.-

i'm not going to lie, but you does makes me happy.

even for a while.

thanks.

and the thing we had.

seriously, i thought you was the one that going to save me from keep drowning in the endless sea.

but i got that wrong.

i have tried to tell you, fairuz.

i've told you i cant imagine we being together and for me, i thought frenship is enough.

i cant have more than that with you.

when i realize that i'm in love with my ex-boyfren,

you never know how guilty i felt.

you dont know what feelings i had for you.

i dont know how to tell you that i can never feel the same for you.

i cant find a way.

until there is a moment,

when my friend lend me a hand.

she did something that she knows i can NEVER do.

she broke your heart.

pretty badly.

i was so disappointed with you.

you tell me that you never going to give up,

and

i keep talling you that 

IT NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN.

you never listen, fairuz.

you left me with NO OTHER CHOICE.

i dont want to repeat the whole same story.

i just want to say i'm sorry for whatever had happened, alright?

i know you probably wont never forgive me,

but that is the only way i can make you realize that i never going to love you.

i will come back to you and apologize.

and yes, there is one thing you got right.

i was angry and disappointed and annoyed.

but i didn't hate you.

i just dont like you.

HATE

is a strong word.

i'm sorry.

i hope one day, we can be frens again.

happy birthday :)

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