ilovethewayyousmile ^^

i miss the feeling of being in love.

and i cant believe that it is returning to me.

:)

thankyou.



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moodswing

DO NOT MESS WITH ME!

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:)

its a happy day. :)

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dont you just LOVE the rain? :)

i love it.
i do. really. :D

not planning to talk about the rain, btw.
i want to talk about what have been bothering me since i-dont-know-when.
but yesterday was ...
when you said those words to me, it does somehow makes my heart pounds.
maybe you might think i am that kind of person yang 'takadaperasaan'
memang itu pun yang you cakap kat i semalam kan?
but you have no idea how the freeaking hell i feel.
even i am not so sure myself.
kadangkadang i senyap not because i dont have anything to say.
but i just cant find a way to say it.
i am not that kind of person yang will just tell someone something so personal.
pemalu pun ade.  >.< hee.

i just want you to know that i am not so easy to understand.
i am a little peculiar.
i want you to know that there is so much more things that you dont know about me.
i am just worried that you might fell in love with a wrong person.
...
and bytheway,
you know i appreciate it all. :)
thankyouverymuchformakingmesmile

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Selamat Hari Lahir :)

happybirthday, my oh-so-emo friend.

:)

we started to be frens since early ramadhan.

u have been a nice fren.

kadangkadang sweet.

kadangkadang kejam.

kadangkadang jahat.

hee :D

i dont really know you to write a long post for your birthday.

but i just nak apologize if some of my words might hurt you.

i memang macam ni.

and sometimes, i dont mean whatever i said.

so, kalau i cakap something so kejam tu,

tak payah la take it seriously sangat.

tapi, tengok tempatdanmasa juga la kan.

i memang tak banyak cakap sangat,

pemalas sikit.

rajin pun ade.

:D

yang lain, you find out yourself la :P

...

Happy Birthday,

Rafiuddin Hafiz

(sorry kalau eja salah. ade Muhammad tak ah? hmm.)

semoga pangjang umur

and

dimurahkan rezeki.

semoga dimudahkan segala urusan,

semoga dapat samasama belajar degree kat uitm shah alam nanti :D

tapi macam tak nak dah masuk uitm je

haha

BE-LAH-GAK-TAK-INGAAAT

:P

Allah bless.

have a wonderful birthday,

kalau tak wonderful pun, buatbuatlah wonderful eh.

hahaha!
:)

sincerely

su :)

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JOM LOMPATLOMPAT In The Rain!!

talking about rain, it have been raining quite regularly here in Lendu. it rains like everyday.
talking about, Dancing In The Rain, I HAVE ACTUALLY DID IT! haha!
percaya tak? percaya tak?
:D
haritu masa koko, hujan tersangatlah lebat. haha. memang basahla kaan. memang terasa macam nak lompatlompat kot kat tengahtengah tu kan. haha! XD
alkisahnya, macam ni...
mulamula memang tak ada niat pun pergi ke koko hari tu. sebab nak menghafal speech. tapi kesian pulak kat Nasha yang berusaha memujuk saya untuk pergi sebab die tak nak pergi sensorang. hee. tengok, saya sangat baik, kaaan?
:D
so yea.
no joke, it does feel good, being in the rain.
never been that happy before.
:)
there was once when i always want to have my very first kiss in the rain.
hahaha.
but it was back then la, masa budakbudak.
now, i am more mature to understand that there is not much of a fairytale in this world.
so it is like so not gonna happen to me.
especially when i always suck in relationship.
ALWAYS SUCK?
well, that sentence sounds wrong, because i have only been in a relationship once. -_-"
yaAllah, naifnye kau, suhaida~ XD

talking about relatioships...
haish. i dont know why i dont like talking about it.
i dont know why i hate it when it comes to this.
especially when i saw frens here and there being in so immature relationship.
i want a relationship that more than just being boyfriend and girlfriend.
i want him to be more like my bestfriend.
i want him to know me, and accept my flaws,
stand my craziness,
and...
erh.
enough said.
not so in 'LOVE' mood to proceed.
btw.
imstillafraidofgettinghurtagain.
idontthinkicouldstandanyofitanymore.
:)
i hope you understand.
<3

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chocolates should be in one of the sevennatural wonders of the world.

well, thanks again, you are my saviour :)

IT DOES ACT AS ANTI-DEPRESSANT, THO.

haha.

so yes, i was not so in a good situation.

being in a middle of something i should not.

erghh!!

easy to say,

tell me what would you do...??

if you have a huge stressful problems, but you just cant let others know, you could not have anyone to share it with.

if you feeling like hating that someone that YOU SHOULDN'T HATE!

if things doesn't go the way you want them to but YOU COULD NOT DO ANYTHING  ABOUT IT.

its killing.

seriousshit, it does.

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tired of drama...

dramadramadrama.

btw, is that title always means a negative post?

hahaha!

i dont feel so good right now.

not so to post a good post. 

so, i might be crapping.

btw, i am not suppose to be entering any social networking or an online diary because

I HAVE NOT DONE WITH MY FREAKING SPEECH OUTLINE!
but, wth. i do need some entertainment too, dont i? 

i have been using a lot of Google translator in order to understand MOST of the words in my research about chocolates; my "informative" speech going-to-be-about.

so depressing.

WHAT CAN YOU POSSIBLY DONT UNDERSTAND ABOUT CHOCOLATE??

i dont want my speech to be so heavy with facts.

i should think of something to make my speech more light and acceptable and understandable.

haish.

that's tough, dont you think?

oh, whatthehell. i gotta make my speech sounds good no matter how. 

lets forget about assignment for a while, shall we?

i want to talk about what is on my mind right now.

wellwell.

im thinking about chocolate.

i know, its irrelevant.

oh wait.

im thinking about you too.

semak je dalam kepala otak i. huh.

heyhey.

walaupun i tak berapa nak pay attention bile you cakap dengan i tadi, 

but i totally understand your situation.

if it is for me, i just go with the easy way;

"yeah, sure, whatever. you have change, so typical."

but i understand that she is your bestfriend. :)

someone that you rather lost connection awhile with me but so not with her.

fahamfaham sangat.

i malas la nak cakap banyakbanyak.

and you tak payah la rase bersalah sangat.

it is your freaking blog, btw. suke hati you la nak tulis ape.

kalau die tak suke, tak payah la nak bace kan.

tapi she did the right thing too, which is post on her blog instead,

which i can say again,

ITS HER BLOG KAN, SUKE HATI DIE LA NAK TULIS APE. 

KALAU YOU TAK SUKE, TAK PAYAH LA BACE.

:P

but

that is not how BESTFRIENDS do, ayte?

so think about it. 

maybe she is trying to make it clear for you that...

she is not the same person you know anymore.

or maybe, yes, she is busy. even mase raya

or she just want you to stay out for a while.

or.

or.

keep guessing.

im tired.

i got tired easily these days. 

well, not physically.

just when in comes about thinking and stuff like that.

maybe i have been thinking too much.

about studies,

about families,

about friends,

about myself,

...

i dont wanna feel stupid or act stupid anymore.

SO I HAVE TO THINK DEEP!

but i still cant help.

im still wondering

WHY THE HELL I AM THE ONLY ONE FEELING IT!
so not fair.

and its quite depressing when i busy thinking about others,

they busy worrying about someone else.

quite depreesing feeling so less important.

and i dont wanna turns out to be as emo shit as you-know-who.

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i miss you, bloggie :D

poyo je.

macam bertahun je tak update blog, kaan?

haha.

bila dah balik rumah, semakin malas nak berfikir depan komputer. haha.

tapi terpaksa, kene buat assignment.

currently in Pahang. :)

my dearest hometown.

living with my dearest unty. :D

abah and ma dah balik.

and saya terpaksa ditinggal sebab i have to bake those cakes for my open house this saturday.

since ma will be busy cooking and stuff, i think i shud borrow my unty's kitchen, instead to bake two or three different kind of cakes for the open house. :)

so yea. here i am.

first of all...

i wanna thank my 

ke-AWESOME-ted BESTFRIEND

for the best outing :)

it have been a while since we went out together, dont you think?

its been fun.

karaoke-ing for 3hours straight in PUASA DAY, 

memang kerja gila la kaan?

haha..

i dont wanna talk about what happen at TGI Friday's

or what you wrote on the cake.

but i do wanna talk about the big TEDDY BEAR!
thanks, ainur, for the fat teddy that looks alot like you.

HAHA!
jkjk. 

:P

ilysfdm.

so,

rayarayaraya.

it has been fun :)

tak jadi balik negeri sembilan, i kinna upset about that. hurm.

tobehonest, FIRST RAYA IN N9 IS LIKE AWEEESOMEE. 

haha.

no joke.

my unty's house in pahang have been quite tiring.

ppl keep coming, nonstop.

one after another.

but then its been fun :)

i mean, that is what raya is all about, ritee? haha.

em.

more stories later.

have to go finish up my outline :)

xx

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mood : *tears

hey you.
i'm sorry

...

ape yang berlaku antara kita, memang su tak jangka lansung. seriously, trully unexpected. yang pasal seseorang tu pun, su memang tak sangka orang yang, bagi su, sebaik itu, ruparupanya tetap tidak boleh dipercayai.
for some freaking reason, i already love all of you as if we are family. for some freaking moments, i do feel happy HAVING SUCH WONDERFUL SISTERS, live with them, spend most of my time with them, share a room with them, gossips together in bed till midnight and maybe more, since i never did have anyone to do such things with before.
each and everyone of you have been a part of my life. hanging out with you is like THE SWEETEST THING. after all the shits assignments and lousy classes sometimes, the best part of my day is always when i am with you, you, you and every''you'.
i promise, when i commited MY MISTAKE, i have NO OTHER FREAKING INTENTION to sell your names to others. never at all. and i could swear to you that i thought that only ME, HER and HER know about it. not until you mention about it.
and i was furious too, knowing that.
because i too, did not know anything about it. i did not know that someone else know about it.

sekarang, bila semua dah jadi macam ni, semua nak tundingtunding jari kan? these kind of things is normal la. i know we can go through it together. i am FREAKING HOPE SO.
because...
i love all of you.
and this is no drama. deep down there inside my heart, yes i do.
EVERYONE.
especially you and you and you and you :)

yes, sayangs, i cried. but not because i felt too much guilty or feel the tense of the fight or because i wanted to creat some drama or seeking for attention...
...
but i know that from now on, things can never be the same anymore.
people will be more aware,
more SARCASTIC,
more keeping things to themselves,
more AWKWARD.
i know that i can no more go to that particular room and treated her the same way anymore because i do feel the pain too.
i know that you and you will no more look at us the same way anymore knowing that we have the FREAKING GUTS to do this to you.
i know things wont be the same anymore.
and i am going to miss us.

specially to kipasmate and miss baju-kurung-cantik,

su sayang korang.

i'm sorry.

please dont leave me behind.

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