i think she was afraid to love sometimes.

i think it scared her.

she was the type to like things that are concrete,

something that you can point to and know what it was.

and i think that's why she struggle with love.

she couldn't touch it,

she couldn't hold on to it and make sure its never change.

i think she wants to point to that one person and said that. 

yes, that's him. 

that's the person that have my heart. 

the one that i love now and forever. 

and for once, FOR ONCE IN HER ENTIRE LIVING LIFE,

 she is sure about it.

without any single doubt.