tired of drama...

dramadramadrama.

btw, is that title always means a negative post?

hahaha!

i dont feel so good right now.

not so to post a good post. 

so, i might be crapping.

btw, i am not suppose to be entering any social networking or an online diary because

I HAVE NOT DONE WITH MY FREAKING SPEECH OUTLINE!
but, wth. i do need some entertainment too, dont i? 

i have been using a lot of Google translator in order to understand MOST of the words in my research about chocolates; my "informative" speech going-to-be-about.

so depressing.

WHAT CAN YOU POSSIBLY DONT UNDERSTAND ABOUT CHOCOLATE??

i dont want my speech to be so heavy with facts.

i should think of something to make my speech more light and acceptable and understandable.

haish.

that's tough, dont you think?

oh, whatthehell. i gotta make my speech sounds good no matter how. 

lets forget about assignment for a while, shall we?

i want to talk about what is on my mind right now.

wellwell.

im thinking about chocolate.

i know, its irrelevant.

oh wait.

im thinking about you too.

semak je dalam kepala otak i. huh.

heyhey.

walaupun i tak berapa nak pay attention bile you cakap dengan i tadi, 

but i totally understand your situation.

if it is for me, i just go with the easy way;

"yeah, sure, whatever. you have change, so typical."

but i understand that she is your bestfriend. :)

someone that you rather lost connection awhile with me but so not with her.

fahamfaham sangat.

i malas la nak cakap banyakbanyak.

and you tak payah la rase bersalah sangat.

it is your freaking blog, btw. suke hati you la nak tulis ape.

kalau die tak suke, tak payah la nak bace kan.

tapi she did the right thing too, which is post on her blog instead,

which i can say again,

ITS HER BLOG KAN, SUKE HATI DIE LA NAK TULIS APE. 

KALAU YOU TAK SUKE, TAK PAYAH LA BACE.

:P

but

that is not how BESTFRIENDS do, ayte?

so think about it. 

maybe she is trying to make it clear for you that...

she is not the same person you know anymore.

or maybe, yes, she is busy. even mase raya

or she just want you to stay out for a while.

or.

or.

keep guessing.

im tired.

i got tired easily these days. 

well, not physically.

just when in comes about thinking and stuff like that.

maybe i have been thinking too much.

about studies,

about families,

about friends,

about myself,

...

i dont wanna feel stupid or act stupid anymore.

SO I HAVE TO THINK DEEP!

but i still cant help.

im still wondering

WHY THE HELL I AM THE ONLY ONE FEELING IT!
so not fair.

and its quite depressing when i busy thinking about others,

they busy worrying about someone else.

quite depreesing feeling so less important.

and i dont wanna turns out to be as emo shit as you-know-who.