It was more than a year ago, I remember how I was so lost trying to find my ways through the new town. I remember of the lonesome feeling, cruising away with alternative transport and my own pair of feet to study the new road and new people. I remember how I walk alone by the roadside wondering if there's anyone out there will ever notice me. I remember how I cried on the train because I fell asleep and missed my stop and how my leg was aching from the long, long walk.
I still remember more than a year ago, when I first saw you. I still remember how your face was so familiar, like in one of those dreams I had. When we finally...
Saturday, June 7, 2014
Monday, January 27, 2014
Deeper Conversation
She woke up every morning with the desire to do right,
to be a good and meaningful person,
to be, as simple as it sounded and as impossible as it actually was;
to be happy.
And during the course of each day her heart would descend from her chest into her stomach.
By early afternoon she was overcome by the feeling that nothing was right,
or nothing was right for her,
and by the desire to be alone.
By evening she was fulfilled,
alone in the magnitude of her grief,
alone in her aimless guilt,
alone even in her loneliness.
"I am not sad,"
she would repeat to herself over and over,
I am not sad.
As if she might one day convince...
Friday, August 23, 2013
The Heart Speaks
I want you.
I want your sleepy confused look when you wake up.
I want to drink tea with you, share some records we find.
I want to talk about everything in the world newspapers.
I want to discuss with you, to be stubborn and quick-witted with you.
I want to have differences between us.
I want your flaws. All of them.
I want go into the deepest corners of your mind and never get bored of you.
I want to be surprised by the new all the time.
I want to look at you like a movie, a living piece of art; always trying to chase what you crave … and capture you.
I want you to be mine and only mine. I will never give up on you. That...
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
How To Be a Bitch
Bitch in this context is obviously not a female dog nor I meant it vulgarly or as an insult.
In a feminine context, it can indicate a strong and an assertive woman; one that makes men feel threatened.
Are you one of those people who puts the needs of others first and your needs last?
Do you find yourself saying "yes" when you mean "no"?
Are you overextending yourself to others?
If so, then you are probably too nice for your own good. Instead of bringing the love and acceptance you crave, this behavior may attract people who will exploit you.
It is indeed true that people will value niceness in others. However, if your...
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Him♥
Nothing beats the feeling of being in love. To have someone who you can proudly call yours. To wake up everyday knowing that you have someone who loves you with all he has. It is the best feelings, when you realize that he understands you thoroughly and handles you better than you handle yourself. I have never felt so much love from anyone before, neither I have had love anyone the way I love him. It is an extraordinary feelings; to fall in love with him. It is like I never did loved anyone before because with him, it is different. Much more different.
Nothing beats the feeling of being with him. Nothing really. I felt...
Monday, July 1, 2013
Here
I will always be here for you.
Always.
When you were angry or sad, or filled up with jealousy,
when you feel insecure,
when you frown,
when you are uncertain,
even when you push me away, I would still be here.
When there are difficulties,
when life is being a bitch,
when there are barriers or boundaries,
I would stay by your side.
I would still be here.
I will be here because I know how we can make each other happy,
and I will be here just to remind you how happy you made me feel.
I will be here because I know that I don't want anyone else but you.
I never will.
It will always be you.
Alway...
Friday, June 7, 2013
Deep Shallow.
The tear drops run down
and fall to her nose
she cries in the dark corner
that nobody goes.
You can follow her tracks
from her eyes to her chin.
Years upon years
of letting them win.
And her eyes tell a story
of anger and pain.
you think that she's happy,
but just look again.
All the scars of her past,
hidden under her clothes
are a roadmap to places
that nobody knows.
Her smiles are now painted,
she is a master of disguise.
And you can see it all,
just look into her eyes.
-e...
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Unbreakable
Why do we find shelter in the rain if it is a blessing from The Almighty?
Why do we hide from the sun if sunlight is what we are looking for in gloomy days?
Why are we afraid of the dark when we know that the moon and stars can't shine without it?
Why do we do things we know it is wrong but we do it anyway?
Why do we do such things to hurt people, hurt ourselves?
Why do we do things without thinking and when we think back about it, it was wrong in every way?
Why do we keep doing that?
Why do you think?
Why do you still use the knife when you know it can hurt you?
Feelings.
They are temporary.
We long for the sun on rainy...
Sunday, May 26, 2013
The Harsh Truth.
You know the moment when you have finally understand something?
Understand why you are afraid and find it hard to trust yourself?
Understand why there are the searing pain every time, all the time, that before this you never understand why and what is the cause?
This is the moment when I have finally understand why.
...
Friday, May 10, 2013
Never Try Hard Enough
when I was younger, I was often told;
"you are not trying hard enough!"
It used to make me angry. I would think:
"How do you know?!"
"How can you measure my effort?!"
But at the end of the day, I would still believe;
"They are right."
To this day, despite myself,
I still do believe it.
It was engraved into me that success is something earned.
if you succeed, you did that.
if you don't succeed, you did that too!
No excuses.
No exceptions.
And yet, nonetheless, the consolation prize received...
Subscribe to:
Posts
(
Atom
)
