2010

hey. lets go through some highlights on whatever happen in 2010.

LONG BREAK AFTER SPM

this was painful -.- LIKE SERIOUSLY. hahaha. totally nothing to do and i eventually become SE-TUH-PID and dumb and just everything that i dont expect myself to be. i still feel so stupid. especially after witnessing what happen now. haha. its okay. i'll take that as a growing up process. ANYWAYS. it was the end of highschool and we all get so excited about it. well, of course then, we will be missing highschool. we have schoolmates that have been missing school days. i was one of them. i do still miss school days. but i dont want to go back there. I WANT TO MOVE ON :)

SPM RESULT

hah. dramadrama. im not so smart, so there is nothing to be proud of. but i am proud of some friends of mine. who yes, get better result than me. and the one that achieve good too. it was full with drama. but yes, still, the highlight of the year. :)

KUMON

my first workplace. :) this is where i have this bunch of cute looking human beings calling me teacher. and i do stuff like marking worksheets and teaching maths to kids. it was an awesome experience. they dont pay me much, i know. but it was the experience and the time i have with them that are priceless. and the fact that i have been learning too. so Kumon is a great place. i never thought that i will eventually MERASA menjadi seorang cikgu. to actually have these smart learning kids calling me CIKGU and TEACHER. :) it was just so great. thanks for the experience :)

UITM

hah. THE DOUBLE HIGHLIGHTED EVENT OF THE YEAR. hhaha.another great thing right here. i was so nervous for this. i was afraid of something like bully or not fitting in or this bunch of people that might be thinking that they own the place or the seniors being so semester bias. so yea. eventually, i surrounded by a lot of beautiful people. amazing, actually. :) so then, uitm is great. the people, the place, the studies. well ofcourse some ups and downs here and there but hey, thats life kan? :) 

RELATIONSHIPS

i dont like talking about this since forever. haha. i mean, its just mean that it is something not to share to people. but anyhow, im letting it out today. so yes, i was in a relationship with this guy i met in uitm. it started out well. great, actually. i was happy. like REALLY. but things change. he just, um, perhaps i just dont know him well enough. so, it turns out to be a mistake. he dont know anything about me too and dont bother trying. heh. i dont pretty much care about people that tend to do nothing more but to annoys me by doing stuff i hate.

deep inside, i know he is a great guy and he will find the right girl. i just cant be the one. anyhow, i know i will find the right one. i know someone out there that will eventually understands me when my words makes no sense at all, love my flaws, say things that i want to hear and appreciates me. we will find each other. its just a small world we have out there. :)

and for you, remember the question you have for me. when my answer was I DONT KNOW? i know now. the answer is NO. :) just to tell you so that you wont be regretting why you wasted your time on me later on. so i tell you now. i just dont want to be blame on anything else later on.

and so and so and so.

 its like almost 10 more minutes to midnight. 

i still have so much more to say tho.

maybe i will come out with some other posts later on.

for now, this is it.

this is me and some things i have been through throughout this year. 

whatever happens in life is a lesson how to grow up.

life is a good teacher, its how the students learn from it make we in different paths.

what matters most is that i am still here.

still standing strong, still able to breathe in the air and 

still able to walk on this earth, 

still have my wonderful family and 

awesome friends. 

even things are not beautiful sometimes, but everything happens for a reason.

sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan menguji makhlukNya dengan sesuatu ujian yang tidak mampu ditanggung,

so, take one step at a time.

everything will be okay.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, PEEPS :)

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LETS UPDATE LONGLONG :D

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angah sudah pun selamat ditunangkann. :) but there is another story behind it. rumah kami dimasuki pencuri pada pagi hari angah bertunang tu. along bawak saya dan adikadik keluar. pukul 2pagi baru balik. :D ma tido pukul 3, siapkan barang hantaran. angah tido pukul 4. we woke up around 6, and bila along bangun, dia tibatiba kehilangan barangbarang diaa. mulamula nak cari around the house. tengoktengok, dekat dapur memang ade kesan orang masuk. dia masuk ikut tingkap. -.- tapi die tak masuk bilik, maybe just grab any random things he saw. nasib baik laptop saya selamat. NASIB BAIK SEMUA ORANG SELAMAT. alhamdulillah :)

cerita dua

i'll keep this as a secret dulu. ;)

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ME, HIM

what happen laa. no persefahaman is itt?

no laaa. nothing much. he just sort of took me for granted. whateverla, shit happens. 

aww. if it was me, i would've done a better job kannn? eh, i can masuk or not? HAHA.

eleh. reply my texts pun malas. go kacau other ppl's lines laaa. :P

no. its because you had a boyfriend. i was heartbroken by that fact. 

...

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OHHH. SUBANO OUTINGGGG. hahaha

EFF YEAHHHH, WE HAD FUNNN.  :D :D

we went to times square, do a bit of shopping, a bit of photo catching and ALOT of going gaga togethaaa. :D

it was a SUPERAWESOME dayyy. 

since i missed laughed so hard like an idiot like that.

and i miss you awesome people.

tonsoflove.

we shall do that again. :D

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aaahhh. sunway was fun and stupid. this one is too long to talk about but still, it was the highlight of the week :D

i met a pretty looking human being. 

that is all i can say for now. PRETTY. HUMAN. BEING.

:P

cerita enam

MELAKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

masa untuk being stupid sudah tamat. 

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27th Disember 2010

abang saya,

MUHAMMAD FAIZAL BIN SULAIMAN

dan buah hati jantung pangeran die yang sengal :P

sudah selamat ditunangkan :)

alhamdulillah. semuanya berjalan lancar.

i am happy if you are, dearest brother. :)

lotsoflove.

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sick of you.

PLEASE JUST GET IT OVER.

I AM SICK OF IT.

AND I THINK SO AS EVERYONE ELSE.

PLEASE.

JUST STOP.

S.T.O.P

you are not proving anything pun.

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life sometimes just .........

its funny how we tend to love someone that hate us.

its funny how we be happy when everyone else is not.

its funny how something just ruined the PROBABLY best moment of your life.

its funny how sometimes we tend to believe some strangers better than anyone else.

its funny how we tend to sing a song that reminds us of that person we trying to forget.

its funny how we have wonderful dreams in such awful time.

its funny how we get angry on something that is just not reasonable.

its funny how we trying to find some happiness in something that already make our lives miserable.

its just funny how when our lives is all about that one person, but that person's life is all about someone else.

lets laugh together. it is so freaking funny, dont you think?

its true that i am over everything.

its so freaking true, yes.

but i am just annoyed by this bunch of people that being so selfish, and everything just have to be about THEM.

hello people, i am a freaking human being with feelings too.
doesn't my feeling matters?

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kenape eh?

kenapa saya rasa macam saya tak suka awak?

-.-"

look, i have stopped living in a fairytale. 

maybe you should too.

it make me sick.

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NOWAYOKAY!

maybeyoushouldstoptalkingandaskingmestupidquestion.

maybeyoushouldevenstopthinkingaboutme.

maybeyoushouldstopthinkingthat

IAMALESBIAN.

becauseiamnot.

andidonthavetheintentiontobeone.

sojustbuzzoffandpleasefindawayoutofmylife.

iwouldappreciatethat. 

thankyouverymuch.

i hate it when some people think that they can buy me with those cheap words.

eff off, you got the wrong girl.

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oh, another perfect dayy :)

19.12.2010

ANOTHER BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!

:D :D

so, the day started out with angah and abah who suppose to go back to Pahang and fetch my grandma, for angah's engagement thingy.

and i was sleeping at nearly 10am that morning when along sortof woke me up and goes;

"kaklang, cakap dengan abah, kau nak ikut g balik kampung, along boleh bawakkan,"

firstly, dont ask why am i still asleep at 10am and

secondly, WHY THE HELL CANT HE JUST TELL ABAH THAT HE WANTS TO FOLLOW HIMSELF?

kaannnn?

but i know why.

and im not telling you.

hahaha.

so, i shouted from my room, and goes,

ABAH, KAKLANG NAK IKUUUUT!

and abah cakap,

AJAK ALONG.

then, i looked at along and say,

"kan, dah settle. -.-"

HAHAHA

so yea.

 dua kereta kot buat rombongan ke rumah makcik untuk menjemput nenek.

sangat gempaks.

HAHA.

so, it was fun.

because it have been a while since we all balik kampung together.

along and angah selalu je tertinggal :/

so, yesterday was awesomee.

we have BIG dinner together and we talk about whats happening in life.

eventhough im still not so glad that my brother is like getting engage in this very short moment,

but atleast.

...

atleast.

erh.

i dont know what the least thiing is. HAHA.

i hope she wont be reading this or else she will be knocking my head, or pull my hair.

she like to do that, tho. -.-

haha.

so, if you saw in fb, i already uploaded some of me and my lilbro's faces when we was cam-whoring in the car. haha.

so, i just gonna upload some here. :)

it was an absolutely awesome day.

alhamdulillah.

that's abang. malumalu. HAHA

THE DRIVER. <3 along :) 

and alot of me and adikk. HAHA. we are cam freaks. weeee~~

along punya babyskeleton pun jadi mangsa. muahahahaha. :D

dah la, tak larat nak upload sume. there are about 100+ pics of me and him hahaha. 

all on my facebook, if you want to see it all. haha. 

me looking ugly puun adee. i know im not so good looking, but then tak yah nak harsh sangat la eh. 

:D

have a good day, fellas :)

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everybody's looking for that something...

*haha. tajuk pun dah macam lagu westlife pulak kaaaann? :P

motif blogpost kali ni?

erh.

takde motif.

sekarang sedang mendengar lagu westlife, lame tak dengar. RINDU SIOTT.

hahaha.

i have been through a relieving stage.

and i never felt happier. :)

OHMAGOD.

did i mention that next week will be my LAST WEEK with the Kumonians?

SERIOUSLYY?

i didn't even see that coming.

i feel like it was just several days ago i started Kumon.

you know, i never felt more satisfied than getting to teach these kids.

biasalah, dulu kan berangan nak jadi cikguuu.

HAHA.

and so. and so.

omg, these westlife guys are soooo cute. HAHA.

tapi sekarang sume dah tua. muka kedutkedut je.

hee. macam la kita ni nanti stay 18 je kaannn.

tak reti nak tuatua

hahaha.

adehh.

and one more thing.

2011 is just around the corner.

that just mean its already been a year i left school.

and the next 26thAugust, i'll be at my last stage to be called a TEENAGER.

cepat gile masa berlalu kan?

then, when it comes to 20, i'll be finishing my diploma. and then, we go catch for degree.

and things started to be more difficult and i have to be able to stand on my own feet.

sometimes, thinking about future really does hurt my head, tho.

kannn?

what will happen?

how will i handle it?

can i get through it?

or

do i get through it well?

kan, sakit tak kepala fikir sume tu?

sakit tak? sakit tak?

you better say YES. haha!

but then, i've been watching 3 idiots. and this guy named

Ranchoddas Shamaldas Chanchad says that

if you're afraid of the future, how will you even cherish the present?

okay. i dont even know if i get that right.

haha.

so anyways, its easy to say that.

lets just forget to future for a while.

things will fall in place.

we just try to hit our best now.

things come and go.

and so, when you have something, never be too happy.

and when you lost it, let it be free.

it just meant that it is not for you, you worth for something better.

have faith in self.

like i heard one wise quotes once saying;

nobody worth your tears.

the one who do, will never make you cry.

have a nice day, loyal readers. :)

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ThankYou Allah :)

today is a very good day until i feel like i'm about to cry.
simply the best day of my life.
alhamdulillah. :')

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