good day, yes?

bangun pagipagi,

decided nak amik wuduk kat luar.

sejuk gilee..

tapi sangat best XD

ade bulan.

sangat besar and orange.

cantik tapi menakutkan.

haha.

prepare breakfast untuk adik,

and teman diorang pergi sekolah.

walaupun mereka sangat mangkuk, buli saya pagipagi,

tapi terima kasih kerana buat saya ketawa pagipagi tu.

:)

abah tak kerja harini.

so, kami berdua tengok movie samasama.

TAK, BUKAN CERITA SAW!

-.-

cerita yang sangat kelakar dan BEST.

bukan cerita bongok tu la kan.

-.-

banyak kott cerita kitorang tengok.

hidustan,

adnan sempit,

just my luck.

haha

seronokseronok.

next, my tuition students came.

jessica dengan gembiranya tunjuk aku paper maths die yang sangat improved. 

a srtong C looks like a good start, since she NEVER did passed before :)

tapi english, masih lemah la kan, malas la nak cerita.

haha.

apa apa pun, semua ni membuatkan saya lebih bersemangat untuk mengajar die.

yang sorang lagi, kimberly ni...

saya tak tau la kan.

dia macam sukasuka die nak datang ke tak,

so, susah sikit nak control.

harini, saya tak masak keseorangan.

abah ada untuk membantu.

haha.

basicly today, kami semua makan air tangan abah.

haha.

sedapsedap.

:))

lepas tu, samasama kemas bilik ngan along.

baju die, SEBEBAN nak di-donate-kan kepada orang yang lebih memerlukan.

buat penuh almari jee..

-.-

tolong adik buat homework.

muka pun dah nampak sangat pemalas.

tapi kena la paksa jugak, 

dah nak upsr kan..

:)

biarla push sikit XD

sekarang, blogging.

sambil chatting dengan rakanku yang sangat tersayang.

:)

bukannye takde perkara yang menyakitkan hati.

tapi, saya sedang belajar untuk tidak ambil peduli.

i SERIOUSLY dont care.

you mean it or not, i dont care.

:)

there is too much happiness in my life to think over the sad part.

i dont need you.

:)

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will this makes you feel better?

i am ALWAYS scared

afraid of A LOT of things.

sometimes i even afraid to talk, because it might hurt.

sometimes i even afraid to think, because it might turn out to be WRONG.

i'm afraid to walk away, because i'm afraid i might lose you COMPLETELY.

i'm afraid to tell you i lke you too because i'm afraid i might dont mean it.

i DONT KNOW how to hate.

seriously, no.

the only one i can say i HATE now is,

MY BROTHER'S GF.

but then, still, i go to her and salam her when she stop by the house.

-_-

maybe i dont find the REALLY right person to hate. haha.

i PRETEND to be happy, to LET GO of the misery.

and sometimes, it does works.

sometimes, i do feel happy FOR REAL.

no joke :)

pretending is not ALWAYS a bad thing.

but its MOSTLY not a good thing.

sometimes its ok if you wanna PRETEND that you care about me, so i can find out and give you a slap.

haha.

no, i mean it.

i observe people,

i read their stories,

i learn their mistakes,

so that my life will turn out to be better.

but sometimes, i do feel that i'm FAR worst than they are.

i've been hurted too, darling.

well, yes, pretty badly.

its not so easy to let go, you know.

because you believe and you was hoping.

but now, i am strong enough to let it go.

i know its only something we went tru as we grow up.

and i'm glad i will still have him as my friend.

sayang, just be glad that our lives couldn't be any worse.

love your life.

forget the jerks that hurt you.

will always be there to support you.

love you loads.

:))

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i have a beautiful name

which match PERFECTLY with my father's name.

i am 17 years + 8months old.

and the youngest among my bestie.

have a happy family.

love them all.

even though i have annoying brothers.

but i like to be annoyed by them sometimes :))

i have awesome frens.

who i love loads...

not sure how my life will turn up without em :))

i had a kind of sickness before.

which is called

WWS

or weird when sick.

but now, no more edi ah.

because now, according to my frens,

I'M WEIRD ALL THE TIME.

frens called it weird.

i call it SPECIAL

thankyou, thankyou.

:)

i have a pet.

a black with a beautiful long fur named

black -.-

an old cat, actually. 

but very manja an CLEVER :)

 my free-time doings:

reading books.

stalk over my frens on fb.

singing to my self.

listen to pretty songs.

facebook-ing

blogging.

chatting with frens.

disturb my brothers playing games and have fun defeated by em. -.-

EAT.

sleep.

surf the net, find out about things i read in the books and magazines.

currently single.

have been single since 2007.

and not interested to be in any relationship for the time being

because

I'M HAVING FUN BEING SINGLE.

XD

i love my life.

i love who i am.

:)

alhamdulillah.

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pms ke? o.o

saya, dia

ade ....... tak?

ade kot. nape.

nak tengok la.

buat ape?

nak tengok aje la.

sebab saya baru je buat.

nak tengok je macam mane awak buat.

tak nak bagi takpela.

gtg, bye...

hak ela.

ape masalahnye?

since now you dah not single,

tak boleh dah la nak gurau2 and borakborak ngan you?
-___-

fine.

don't care.

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seriously? idc. -_-

its not like we are STILL in 2005 when you can just fool me around.

and be proud of what you have that i dont.

GET A LIFE.

and just PLEASE get off mine.

 

i'm NOT that little girl anymore...

 

 

 

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the last song ever..... :)

yesterday you were mine

today you are hers.

tomorrow you might be alone.

yesterday i was your girlfriend

today i am your best friend

tomorrow i might not exist in your life.

yesterday you gave me love songs

today you give me sad songs.

tomorrow you might get tired singing for me

yesterday you promised me to tell about her

today i look like fool because i am NOT FULLY AWARE ABOUT HER.

tomorrow you might fool me around knowing i was badly in love with you.

yesterday you told me you dont remember when you get together with her

today i found out you were celebrating your ANNIVERSARY with her

tomorrow you might hide MORE SHITS from me.

yesterday you said you were sorry

today you think it was my mistake.

tomorrow you might blame it all on me.

yesterday i thought you were different

today you REALLY show me a totally different side of you

tomorrow i might dont know who you are anymore

yesterday you had me as someone that loves you DAMN-LOT

today you hurt my feelings

tomorrow you might feel what i felt

yesterday i loved you the way that no-one can ever imagine.

today i'm walking away, getting over you

tomorrow i might walk pass by you, not even realizing that you are there

yesterday i was hoping we would be back together.

today i'm hoping that i can get over you

tomorrow i might be hoping that we never were together.

yesterday i said I LOVE YOU

today i say I'M OVER YOU.

tomorrow i might have NOTHING left to say to you....

 THANK YOU.

i missed you.

i loved you.

AND IT FELT SO GOOD TO USE THE PAST TENSE!

(:

i try harder this time.

and i did it...

thanks, darling, for taking my blindfold off

and for helping me get over you.

appreciate that, really. :)

here is the LAST SONG EVER.... for you :)

thanks for the memories..

now that its all said and done

i cant believe you were the one

to build me up and tear me down

like an old abandoned  house

and what you said when you left

just left me cold and out of breath

i fell too far was in way too deep

guess i let you get the best of me

well, i never saw its coming,

i should've started running

A LONG LONG TIME AGO...

and i never thought to doubt you

i'm better off without you,

more than you, more than you know

i'm slowly getting closure

i guess its really over

I'M FINALLY GETTING BETTER

now i'm picking up the pieces

and spending all of these years

PUTTING MY HEART BACK TOGETHER

cause the day i thought i'd never get through,

I GOT OVER YOU!

you took a hammer to these walls

dragged the memories down the hall

packed your bags and walk away

there was nothing i could say

and when you slammed the front door shut

A LOT OF OTHERS OPEN UP

so, dig my eyes

so i could see

THAT YOU NEVER WERE THE BEST FOR ME

well, i never saw its coming,

i should've started running

A LONG LONG TIME AGO...

and i never thought to doubt you

i'm better off without you,

more than you, more than you know

i'm slowly getting closure

i guess its really over

I'M FINALLY GETTING BETTER

now i'm picking up the pieces

and spending all of these years

PUTTING MY HEART BACK TOGETHER

cause the day i thought i'd never get through,

I GOT OVER YOU!!

well, i never saw it coming,

i should've started running

A LONG LONG TIME AGO...

and i never thought to doubt you

i'm better off without you,

MORE THAN YOU, MORE THAN YOU KNOW!

well, i never saw it coming,

i should've started running

A LONG LONG TIME AGO...

and i never thought to doubt you

i'm better off without you,

more than you, more than you know

i'm slowly getting closure

i guess its really over

I'M FINALLY GETTING BETTER

now i'm picking up the pieces

and spending all of these years

PUTTING MY HEART BACK TOGETHER

well, i'm putting my heart back together

cause i got over

i got over you...

I GOT OVER YOU!!

cause the day i thought i never get through

i got over you....

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tak faham

if u love him so much?

why you want to marry some other guy?

maybe for you, it is nothing.

i dunno what were you thinking.

BUT FOR ME, IT IS A SERIOUS PROBLEM!
you told me that you just SAYANG him.

tak de niat nak together balik.

but.

according to what i saw.

i think u lied.

YOU WAS HOPING THAT YOU NEVER DID BROKE UP WITH HIM.

why would you do that if you no longer in love with him?

honey,

MARRIAGE

is not a game.

it is about spending YOUR LIFETIME to that one particular guy.

dont you think you just need MORE time to think about it?

i mean, its not thet you are old.

YOU MADE A BLOG ABOUT HIM.

well, its not something new.

but, YOU ARE GETTING MARRIED THIS WEEKEND, 

AND THE BLOG IS STILL ACTIVE.

you know what i wonder?

i can see it in your eyes that you still love him.

and the way you tell me about him, i think he still loves you too.

i dont get it why you two cant work out and you just have to get married so fast.

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GONE

it feels like i don't know you anymore.

is that normal?

o.O

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u said........

 its wasting time.

all the others think its wasting time.

all the others agree with me.

even one of the teacher over here when i talked personally to him.

i just wanna go home,

be with my family again.

go... GO!

GO BE WITH YOUR FAMILY!

amalia, lai yi, sumaiyaa, jaspreet, melissa and my other frens sume bawak mak bapak die duduk sana...

-_-

urgh!! I DONT BOTHER!!!! 

xO

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sorry, no?

hey there.

whats up?

how have you been doing over there?
having a hard time?

stuck in a place you dont like?

stuck in a place where you NEVER wanna be?

guess what?

been there.

not THERE which is where u are rite now.

but in that kind of situation.

and guess again,

THAT situation,

where i felt so awkward and HATE most,

actually

had BROUGHT ME TO YOU.

you have been such a baby.

i always stands up for you when my frens think so,

BUT I THINK I HAVE TO AGREE WITH THEM NOW.

i am sorry.

jeez,

my GIRLfrens are doing FINE with their lives when they are at the same place with you.

well, look around,

those people around you are eating the same thing,

doing the same routine,

facing the same jerks.

so, what the hell?

what is there about you that you wanna cry about?

you have frens,

you told me that you are KINDA famous among the girls.

well, it sounds like the girls are doing fine than you. -_-

stop making a big fuss about it.

fyi, i wanted to go to where you are at now.

i really wanted to see how things are like around there.

well, of course not anymore, but it doesn't matter.

you are stronger than that,

you survive a strange sickness,

you have felt so much more pain,

been tru more hard times with jerks.

just take them as a practice for you to face the REAL WORLD, you know.

take it as an opportunity that not everyone had that chance.

i know, i know.

i am NOT the one that have to eat shits everyday.

not the one that have to face those jerks everyday.

not the one that have to be a prisoner and have bad day EVERYDAY.

but you should so know,

THAT YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

there are others that DONT WANT IT TOO.

feel the same way that you do.

but they go tru with it.

i am sorry.

but even if i could help you.

i wouldn't.

because, yes, it is stupid.

I WOULD BE THE STUPID ONE AGAIN.

you mentioned about the blog,

you talked to me,

you asked me to help you to do things,

as if like i am going to sacrifice FOR YOU.

no, sayang.

you got that wrong.

because FIRST OF ALL,

i am soo getting over you.

as a matter of fact, it feels like i AM over you.

because you shove me away,

silently.

and i am not too dumb, NOT TO REALIZE.

one more thing,

you are out when you shouldn't have.

I TOO, WOULD BE DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU.

so make a choice.

come back and tell them that you GAVE UP,

you have been the BIGGEST LOSER,

tell them that you have been CRYING to get out of there.

and you just RUN AWAY.

like a little girl.

and perhaps SEE OTHER GIRLS

that probably decided to stay there and FACE IT.

OR STAY.

and come back,

and tell them that YOU SURVIVED THE HELL.

and it feels so good to be one of the one that would 

EAT THOSE SHITS

AND FACE THOSE JERKS EVERYDAY

and i am still alive.

and stronger.

one of my fren had been sent to SABAH.

my another fren's camp is located next to a CHICKEN FARM

and you would want to imagine the smell and the flies.

just be glad that things are nothing more worst for you. 

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