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hellohello ^^ goodmorning, loyal readers :)
there's not much to type on today.
but i still wanna post something. ^^

lets talk about the past, shall we?

i have experiences that *haha* SE-TUH-PID.
no joke.
sometimes, when i turn back behind, i dont know why, but,
I FEEL EXTRA STUPID.
you know that feeling?
-__-"

well, it is somehow embarassing, but then, it is an experience that tought me to grow up.
i still remember back then, when i was overshadowed by you,
seeking for happiness in such sorrow, i have actually learn to hate.
funny, huh?
because the person now is my bestfriend.

and so for you...
well, i was lost,
i was devastated,
i was saviourly broken,
but those days has gone, you know.
i somehow, woke up from the bad dream and live a perfectly FINE normal life.

you still remember how you got me feel?
well, yes.
i will NEVER forget till the day i die.
NEVER.
:)

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presenting...

the DMC1kauingatkauDIVA?

TOGETHER FOREVER.

DMC1D

:)

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DEVASTATING.

i found out that my smiles recently are not that pretty anymore. is that possible? is that even normal? it is not that i am trying to fake it, but i really love to smile. i guess i have lost my smiling skill. *sigh*anybody can return my smile? -_-"

i have a major headache right now. not sure because of what. skipped CTU class this morning, 1st, because of my heavy head, 2nd because my friends left me alone, because i was several minutes late. so, i'm kinda frustrated because i missed CTU class last week too, because i went back to pJ.

i dont know what is up with me lately. i laugh a lot, but still feeling lonely and devastated.

HATETHATDAMNFEELING!!

imissyou, ma :(

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saya rindu ma :')

i miss watching our favourite movie together,

and i will put my head on her lap,

and she will be caressing my hair.

i miss cooking with her,

and at the time, we will be gossiping,

talking about the things that could make us laugh.

talking about things that only both of us know and understand.

i miss fighting with her,

over the little things,

sometimes on who is more goodlooking, Mr.EdwardCullen or Mr.JacobBlack.

sometimes about colours.

sometimes about song lyrics.

i miss sneaking in her room at night,

and sleep beside her.

just to feel her warmth,

and missing her hugs.

i miss talking to her.

just about anything

since now, i hate talking to the phone, due to the horrible line connection in melaka,

i misses her more.

no offence eh, everyone,

but now, i SERIOUSLY misses her.

especially when i cant do what we ALWAYS use to do at the first of puase.

i am growing up.

i have to make her proud.

ma,

whatever i do,

i'll do it for you.

iloveyousomuch...

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its RAMADHAN :)

Salam Ramadhan, Beautiful People :)

well, it is my first Ramadhan without my

lovely mother

hilarious father

and

heart-cheerer brothers.

imissyouguys.

:')

well, as to you, ma.

kaklang sangat menyayangi ma. :)

terkilan jugak first sahur kaklang tak dapat nak makan masakan ma.

adoii.

but i know i have to get use to it.

:D

kaklang okay je.

PROMISE.

besides missing you too much,

i'm okay.

iloveyoutooABAH.

you know that.

always and forever.

selamat berpuase, eh.

JANGAN LUPA RINDU SAYA JUGA.

:)

experienceexperience.

sometimes you are just so ..............

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i understand :)

this is a story from my fren.

this post is for her,

how i understand what she is going through.

"when you held my hand for the first time, i felt the warmth of your love. i know that it is real. i know that you love me too, even you did not say a word. i want to say it but i couldn't. but then, i think you know that i have fallen in love with you. the days gone perfectly well.me and you, perfect couple, dont you think? but it never enough. you always wanted more. i am not the perfect girl for you. you want her. she who have everything that i have to live without. i thought i can go through it because you are not the first, and so i thought that you are not definitely going to be the last. and so, when i go through my life, i met others, but i couldn't understand why i couldn't find anyone like you, or anyone better than you. after a while, we met again. you have changed alot. so much. you no more with the girl you left me for. there was a lot more after me, after her. i was surprised because i couldn't be with anyone else after you. but you have a lot more than i could ever expected. you want to guess the one thing that i did not understand? you have change a lot, you have even forgotten me, and held a lot of other hands besides mine, BUT when you held my hand again that day, i can still feel the warmth, i can still feel the extraordinaire feelings. i can still feel the presence of the old you. and there, i realized, ILOVEYOU, and i cant seem to find any other. knowing that you have her, doesn't seem to kill the feeling. the feeling still alive, honey. after all of these years. if you can find anyone that could love you any better than that, send my regards to her."

she said to me,

"just imagine if you are in my shoes"

i replied,

"i wish. i wish i am in ur shoes. i wish i could love like that."

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dreamalittledreamofme

okay. i am not actually myself right now. so, please pardon my "nonsensibility". saya berada di hadapan lappy pada pagi ini adalah untuk mengarut. jadi, ini adalah post blog saya yang patut dihiraukan dan tak perlulah diambil berat sangat. i just want to shout to YOU. DUDE!! I MISS YOUUU LAAA!!! serious, i rindu you sangat. i wanna text, i'm afraid you wont reply. i want to call, i'm afraid you might be busy. go la online, and see my status and reply my status and text me. and. and. and. but, wth, you didn't know i was talking about you. hahaha. i will keep it to my self until the time come. but i know you'd miss me too. ;) let me tell you a little something about him. he is someone that could make me smile. can make me laugh. can make me feel appreciated. he concern about me, about what i'm going through. he can make me smile just by thinking of him. he is someone that could make me feel better when i'm in major breakdown. always there when i was in tears. always there to borrow me a shoulder to cry. always there to listen, always there to cheer me up. you might not realize this, but yes, its you i'm talking about. uts you that i waited to appear in my chatlist and notifications. its you.i promise. . imy. imy imy. imysfdm. yes. its you.

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mood : not in the mood.

wanna know my ACTUAL everyday routine?

well,

i slept at nearly or around 4am almost everyday.

often skip lunch or dinner.

feel extra tired with the extra walking and extra work everytime.

now i have to run and catch up my studies when i realize that 

THIS IS NOT SCHOOL WHEN YOU HAVE THE FREAKING WHOLE YEAR!!

i only have 6months to learn and revise everything before my final exam which is soverymch important.

  ...

i think i might fall sick in a few days.

plus, my flu keep on come and go and wont let me go.

my mom is going to kill me when she know that i skipped my meal.

she is going to gimme a perfect, long lecture when she REALIZE that i'm sick and she knows i wont swallow those pills.

so, i need to jog tomorrow.
i better do so before the fever get on me.
then,

i'll be okay :)

oh.
andthisisalsomaybebecauseimissesyoutoomuch.
<3

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thinking of you

i dont know why.

just suddenly i thought of you.

i hope you're okay.

i'm still wondering about your condition.

it's not being hipocrite.

but i still feel a little guilty.

and i know i wont get over it.

there will be one fine day when i will apologise to you.

perhaps since then, we will be friends.

FOREVER.

perhaps, you already growing up, be more mature.

perhaps you have found a perfect girl.

that loves you more than anything in the world.

and perhaps,

you will love her.

more than you use to love me.

dont tryna deny it.

i hope you will understand. 

if you know me well enough,

you know i'd be thinking of you right now.

you know i'd feel guilty.

that is just if you know me well enough.

take care :)

best regards,

su.

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have i lost my ability to type a long post?

i use to have all the long posts kan?
sekarang dah tade.
perasan tak sume post macam pendekpendek je?
:P

nak cakap sal ape eh?
oh, yesyes.
masscomm induction.
TERBAIK SEYH!!
hahaha.
walaupun pada mulanya tak berapa nak best sebab Si Ketiak Menangis nak lead cheer and menyuruh kami menjadi segedik dia, tapi it all turns out to be ok after that.
the activities are serious fun.
its worth it to stand under the the hot sun just to experiance a SERIOUS fun like that. :)
the letcurers are there too, doing the EXTRAORDINARE tepuk masscomm and tabik masscomm.
HAHAHAHA.
that was hillarious XD
memang gile sempoii. :)
and the seniors...
they are THE BEST SENIORS YOU COULD EVER ASK FOR.
no joke.
sangat best dan mereka sangat sempoi.
but then, i tak nampak him.
the one who got my attention since MDS.
i'm sure induction will be more FUUUUNN with him around.
but, wth, maybe he's busy watching KUCHKUCH HOTA HAI kat rumah.
hahaha,
tapetape.
anyways,
walaupun kami sangat nakal, sangat mencapub dan sangat tak mendengar kate.
tapi mereka tetap sabar and together laugh about it because they know they use to do that too. :D
YOU GUYS ROCKS! XD

and talking about my CLASSMATES.

my AWESOME CLASSMATES.

we are a family.

choral speaking was a disaster.

skecth was a fine last minute preparation.

but then, we go through it together and laugh about it together.

i have the most happening class,

where we treat everyone as friends, as family.

everyone is equal, eveyone is everyone.

we go through happy moments with a lot of laughter, a lot of joy.

and we go through the sorrow moments together too, together we feel the tense, together we put our heads down.

i'm still glad that i have them as classmates :)

then, i shud talk about my TUN PUTERI block.

yes, my college's name is TUN PUTERI.

comel, yes?

haha.

tengok orang laa. XD

bytheway, well yes, i'm glad i'm a TUN PUTERIs too.

which i thik have the prettiest name.

i have pretty seniors who are so cool too.

i was forced to join the cheerleaders but it was fun!
SERIOUS FUN!

XD

TUN PUTERI ROCK THE PADANG KAWAD THAT NITE, YES?
we dance to the song thrilller, imma be and wakawaka.

but they cut off the song wakawaka because perhpas, they think its too sexy :P

and for you, yang sibuk sangat nak i buat a post for you, now here it is,

a special thanxie to en. KHAIRI ABDULLAH,

sebab sudi melayan kerenah saya yang ntah apeape ni. :P

the one that dont mind texting me and remember my schedule.

kalau i ade kelas pagi nanti, boleh ah tolong kejutkan, eh? haha.

jokingjoking.

oh oh.

yang [aling lawak mase you call i pukul 2 pagi tu.

SERIOUSLY, I DONT KNOW WHY I PICK UP THE PHONE,

I DONT KNOW WHAT I SAID,

AND I DONT KNOW WHO I TALK TO.

i just remembered that someone called and i pick up the phone.

hahaha.

serious, lawak.

thaniah la sebab anda sudah berjaya mendengar saya mengigau.

XD

eh, thanks tau.

thanks for still stick around and be my fren after all this while :)

we've been through a lot and i could swear to you now that the past has remain as pasts.

there's nothing you shud worry about.

anyways,

you are still my bestGUYfriend, okaay? XD

aaand so for YOU.

istillmissingyou. :)

imisstalkingcrapwithyou.

imissyourstupidlittlejokes.

imissyourCOMELlaugh.

imysm.

:)

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