please make it stop.

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be a little sensible, will you?

you did it once, it is acceptable

you did it twice, it gets a lil bit annoying.

you did it thrice, I FEEL LIKE THROWING A CHAIR TO YOU.

yes, it matters.

THESE LITTLE THINGS MATTERS.

and it is not little things.

it stuff that i hate.

AND YOU KNOW IT.

damn it, it is not bloody funny!

can you use a lil brain of yours?

cant you think i might freak out and cry?

maybe i could just be scared to death?

it doesnt matter to you, kan?

what i might think, what i might feel, it simply does not matter to you.

because the fact is, you dont actually care what i feel.

sometimes i wonder why you always do stuff that i hate?

look, i am trying so hard here.

if you are trying to make me hate you, congratulations.

IT FCKING WORKING.

p/s: dont worry. i will forgive you before i went to sleep because i dont sleep with anger. tomorrow, when i decided to just get over it and give you ANOTHER chance, you can always do that again. because i am just NOTHING. just a stupid girl that dont mind to be fooled around. thankyouverymuch.

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something i got from facebook.

I’m afraid of…

[X] the dark

[ ] staying single forever

[ ] being a parent   

[ ] giving birth

[ ] being myself in front of others

[ ] open spaces

[X] closed spaces

[X] heights

[X] dogs - if random wild dog that like to chase people for fun

[ ] birds

[ ] fish - only the gigantic ones. scares the crap out of me.

[ ] spiders - more to GELI. when they have their little feets on your skin.

[ ] flowers or other plants - wild plants, maybe, especially the weird looking ones.

[ ] being touched

[ ] fire

[X] deep water

[X] snakes

[ ] silk

[ ] the ocean

[X] failure

[  ] success

[X] thunder/lightning

[ ] frogs/toads - geli yang amat. 

[ ] my boyfriend’s/girlfriend’s dad

[ ] boyfriend’s/girlfriend’s mom

[ ] rats

[X] jumping from high places

[ ] snow

[ ] rain - i love this thing the most <3

[ ] wind

[X] crossing hanging bridges - especially when you have idiots that purposely swing it just to scared me,

[X] death - everyone does.

[ ] heaven

[X] being robbed

[X] falling

[ ] clowns

[ ] dolls (u know,the ones that can kill you...) 

[X] large crowds of people

[  ] men 

[ ] women

[ ] having great responsibilities

[ ] doctors

[X] tornadoes

[X] hurricanes

[X] incurable diseases

[X] sharks

[ ] Friday the 13th

[X] ghosts

[X] poverty

[ ] halloween

[ ] school

[ ] trains 

[ ] odd numbers

[ ] even numbers

[X] being alone

[X] becoming blind

[X] becoming deaf

[ ] growing up

[X] creepy noises in the night

[ ] bee stings

[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals

[ ] needles

[X] blood

[ ] dinosaurs - huh? o.O

[  ] the welcome mat - wait.. WHAA?

[ ] high speed

[ ] throwing up

[ ] falling in love - maybe.

[ ] super secrets

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rehab

we always afraid of making mistakes.

and so, we often running away for it.

we do things differently and claim that we dont wanna commit anymore mistakes.

without realizing that you are actually making EVEN MORE mistakes.

so, why exactly we always afraid of making mistakes?

isn't that what everyone do?

....

so today itself, i discover something.

its okay to make mistakes.

we are born to make mistakes and then we learn from it.

and that does not mean that we cannot commit anymore mistakes.

we will keep making mistakes. 

just make sure it is not the same mistakes.

try committing other mistakes and learn different things in life.

that is how it goes.

lets forgive and remind yourself that everyone make mistakes,

everyone have their own flaws,

AND THERE IS NOTHING WRONG ABOUT THAT.

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am i asking too much?

how about requesting for an ending?

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and the POWER VOCAL goes to.....

FAIZAL TAHIR!!!

okay. 

he won POWER VOCAL AWARD in ShoutAwards

which i will actually sue them if they didn't give the title to him.

and

HE IS BRINGING TWO FREAKING SONGS TO AJL's FINALS! 

:D :D

i am so freaking excited make me have to blog straight away. :P

i am a big fan of him.

and i dont freaking care what other people want to talk about him.

because for me,

HE IS A LEGEND.

great voice.

great personality.

:)

yes, everyone, for the third time in a row. he brought TWO of his songs to finals.

and he is an AWESOME singer.

BE JEALOUS.

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imissyoutoo ;)

who else but THEM.

my keAWESOMEted bestfriends.

:)

we suppose to be out to sunway like tomorrow but im not gonna be in town tomorrow.

so yea, IM EMO NOW.

x(

what do i miss about them?

are you kidding, ITS EVERYTHING!

the hangout, the gossiping, the goingcrazytogether, the EVERYTHING.

but i just have to be away and i am sure that there are always a next time.

sorry korang!

iheartyou!

you wont hate me for cancelling the goingout, right?

of course you wont hate me.

im just too cute to be hated.

*winks

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look what i found!

"It's better to get hurt than to feel nothing at all,"

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my imperfection.

i know i am not pretty much of a good friend.

everyone is somehow never good enough for us.

then, pardon me if for being imperfect.

...

it is somehow quite confusing when it comes to situation when you have no freaking idea what to do.

back then, when i use to talk too much ppl tend to get annoyed.

when i choose to not to talk that much, they somehow have problem with it too.

i accept the fact that i am not perfect.

i accept the fact that nobody in the world is.

i am aware that i am not always there for my friends when they really need someone.

i am aware that sometimes i have to handle things on my own.

but as ainur said...

when your friend couldn't be there all the time for you,

believe in yourself and you will do great on your own.

because people always said that , i'll be there for you.

but believe it or not, they dont.

for some unfortunate day, you wake up and thought that you always have them, but the first thing you realize is that you have to handle things on your own.

and with that, we grow up and be stronger and learn more about things in life. 

so dont be too upset when sometimes you feel that they are not there for you. because, without realizing, you actually not always be there for them too. :)

:)

but i will always try my best to be the best friend to you;

to always be there for you.

sorry for my imperfections.

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a little understanding would be nice

so i had a fever.

again.

i think its due to COM161 tense + lack of sleep + how i was dancing in the rain yesterday evening.

-__-"

please do not blame me. it was just so temptating.

so it was kinna a bad fever. 

but i get over it already, as usual.

except my mom dragged me down to the clinic and force me to swallow those pills that taste like shit.

and it actually make me sleep like a dead girl whole day.

but i am awake now and feels a lil better.

well, i dont have a good start of a day today.

i hope i can do a lil something about this.

because i starting to feel like this whole thing is sort of a mistake.

i just need these people to be alittle more sensible.

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