Hello Beautiful 2013!

2013, people. What have you achieved so far?
It is the 19th day of the new year, how has it been treating you?

2013 had been a good start for me, Alhamdulillah. I am still standing, still breathing, still growing some body tissues and perhaps some fat. I am on my semester break now, which I think pretty awesome. It feels like 2013 is giving me a break from the awful and exhausting 2012. But I am told not to whine. Everything has it good and bad part. 2012 had been good to me in some ways too. Pretty sure of that. There are still some things that can make thought of it and smile away. Something worth standing for. I've broken some rules and run through rough roads. But those things that make our lives worth living.

I've learned a lot from the previous year. I fell hard, I failed, I been down on my knees, I sat on that corner and cried for the entire night, I screamed to the pillow for a better day, I fake a smile, I laughed like there's no tomorrow, I got high on chocolates, I went on the craziest road trip, I live. At second thought, those imperfect days that make my life so perfect now. The mistakes, the wrong choice, the wrong decision, the wrong path taken, all of those things that took me to the most incredible journey that I am proud of experiencing.

For the beautiful people who have been reading my blog even after all of these years, I would love to thank each and every one of you. Thank you for spending a bit of your time reading this ridiculous post that I wrote mostly about my life. If you realize I always write emo posts because when I am happy I am too busy living it and basically this is where I let go of my sadness and agony. My blog is a place where I talk to myself and how I tell myself to feel better and to be better. I blogged for myself. I am not blogging for people to read it. I blogged for myself. Not for other people's pleasure or leisure. Mind that. It's just that I don't mind people reading it because sometimes it is good to share your experiences and feelings. Sometimes it makes you/us/me feel like; "so I am not the only one in the world with these awful feelings."

Yes people, you are not the only one with feelings. Other people do too. You are not the only one with problems; some people are facing even bigger piece of shit that life threw to them. Sometimes, there are no use to whine and to feel like the world's biggest problem is on your shoulders. In the end, everybody got makes mistakes, everybody got hurt because we are humans, we have feelings, we are flawed but that is what we are, those imperfections that define ourselves. Keep your heads up, swallow it down and live. Move on. There are better things to look up on ahead of you.

Sometimes, just SOMETIMES, you have to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve. You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own, and you know what you know... and you are the one who will decide where to go next.

Take care, beautiful people. :)



p/s : Since I promised Aimanoman I am going to write something about him, here goes nothing: you appear on Twitter at almost every time when I needed some distraction and you will be doing/tweet something for me to laugh on. You are a good friend. Thank you. Stay awesome :3

p/p/s : I have this ask.fm account that you can ask me about anything. I would like it if you drop some nice songs that I can listen to because I am actually getting tired of the same songs. Click here to go to the page. :)

p/p/p/s : I love my best friends.