despicable me

“We used to call it her Cinderella complex, because often when she had agreed to go out in the evening she would be seized by panic and announce that she had nothing to wear.” 
― Emma Donoghue

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When you were busy making me cry, he was trying his best to make me smile again.
When you left me without words, he was up awake till late a night trying to make up conversation with me.
When you were trying hard not to hold my hand in public, he was trying hard to have my hand in his all of the time.
When you hide me away from your friends, he proudly introduce me to his.
...
and I have the thought of you refuse to accept the birthday gift i gave you because you don't want to crack your head worry about what to give me for my birthday.
so that you don't have to feel guilty if you couldn't get me anything for my birthday.
funny that i have that kind of thought.
but i think that is EXACTLY the reason why you did what you did.
and for that, FUCK YOU, BRO.
fuck you.

Maybe I lost my ability to love the way I love you.
I cant have those feelings I have for you with someone else.
crazy. but true.
Maybe he cant make me laugh the way you do.
But at least, he didn't make me cry.
and I know he never will.

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I miss blogging. ALOT.

maybe I'll come blogging about the normal things.
Just like how I used to blog.

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What Kind of Heart That Doesn't Look Back?

If you ask me how I am doing I would say I'm doing just fine.
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind.

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it rains when you were here and it rains when you're gone.

Once a upon a time,
I believe it was a Friday when I caught your eye,
and we caught on something.
I hold on to the night when you look me in the eye and tell me you love me.
Were you just kidding, 'cause it seems to me.
This thing is breaking down, we almost never speak.
And I don't feel welcome anymore.
Baby, what happened? -- please tell me 'cause one second it was perfect but now you're half way out the door.
And I stare at the phone, you still hasn't call.
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothing at all.
And you flash back to when he said; "Forever and always."
And it rains, in your bedroom, everything was wrong,
It rains when you were and it rains when you're gone.
'Cause I was there when you said, "Forever and always."
Was I out of line?
Or did I say something way too honest? -- made you run and hide, like a scared little boy.
I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure.
So, here's to everything, coming down to nothing;
Here's to silence, that cuts me to the core.
Where is this going?
Thought I knew you for a minute but I don't anymore.

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Skins

Emily     : What do you do when someone you love let you down? Really fucks you over?
Thomas : You must try stop loving them.
Emily     : Is that even possible?
Thomas : ...no.

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Last Words.

Remember when we fought about something and you said
"So what you want me to do?"
and I said
"Nothing"
And you thought I don't fucking care. Truth is, no matter what you do, no matter how fucked up you be, no matter how bad you are in my friends' eyes, I'd still Love you, You are still Like A Boss to me. :) and that is why you don't have to do anything.

I was shivering like fuck when I were to see you the other day. Its not that I am afraid of you, or of what's going to happen, I just, I don't know. I just shivered like fuck that I can't barely walk, mann.

I always come across this quote that says;
"Sometimes we have to understand that some people can stay in your heart, but not in your life"
today, I have to understand that some people (like me) can stay in your life, but not in your heart. I'm sorry I made you stop loving me, mann. But you can't say WE lost the spark, it's you that lost it. Just you.

Sometimes when I sit back, and I think about those stupid promises you gave me, I feel like wearing my Superman T-shirt, fly to your house and stab you with your mummy's kitchen knife after shoving all of your words back to your face.
But then I realize that this breakup is the best for you and me. I totally understand that. Just a bit disappointed, that's all. I can manage. I know we need this breakup sooner or later, I just thought you'd be more of a gentleman in handling it.

I accepted whatever that happened between us. I accept the pain, I manage the changes, I let you go. But in another life, mann, you are fucking mine! *insert Katy Perry's; The One That Got Away here (chorus only)* hehe

One day, you will miss me, and you will regret that you let me go. No other girl could love you the way I loved you, and one day you will realize that it is fucking true.

You gave me a long talk/advice about my future-boyfriend that night, I couldn't get a chance to do the same so, here we go;
If you happened to have some other girls after me, be more sensitive. I am not saying that you should cry every time she got angry, I'm saying that you should be more sensible about those little things she said or do. Let her know that you want her in her life everyday, make her feel safe being with you. Do not give up when she is PMS-ing, and don't stay away when she said 'Go' or 'Get the fuck out of my life!'. Take time to talk and discuss about every single thing, dont stay away and merajuk too long, it's irritating.
I will help you with anything BUT to help you handle your girlfriend issues, aite? Just keep that in mind.

I will not apologized about anything that happened before. Practically, they are not my fault, you know I give my heart and soul to our relationship, kann. its just that, I would want to thankyou. For making me who I am today. I am stronger now, I never felt this good with myself. Though I cursed alot because of you, and practically took my innocence away, I'd still would like to thankyou for bringing me up and then tear me down. Felt good that I handled it Like A Boss. :)



hey.
hey.
fuck all these shyts already, aite?
you are my BITCH-MATE now. and that is equally awesome, if you ask me :)

I can't wait to see you in another life. Thanks for everything. 

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just being honest

I hate that stupid looking picture you caught, aite?
Damn stupid wehh.

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Craving for McDonalds.

I'm not going to cry anymore, just so you know.

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Are You In Love?

"When you fall in love the entire world changes. Well, maybe the world does not change at all. It is your perspective and outlook on life that does. Everything that has become so familiar suddenly feels refreshing and new. You notice the minuscule details of not only the person you are infatuated with but all of your surroundings. Even though you are scared, there is an overwhelming sense of hope and joy that keeps swirling about in your stomach. These feelings somehow manage to overpower the mixture of fear and insecurity you have kept buried inside of yourself for so long. Love is a powerful force of change. That is what makes it so beautiful."

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