31st March 2011

and someone is turning 19.

i cant remember when was the first time we met.

but whatever it is, 

i am greatly thankful that we found each other.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BEST FRIEND :) <3

nineteen years of living has taught me a lot about friendship.

basically, friendship is not about who stays as a companion or just being source of laughter,

but someone who still be there to lend a shoulder to cry on.

and that is exactly what i have her doing.

the one that having the best next word after you spitting out your sorrow.

i sure miss having my bestfriends around, i sure miss having us go for lunch together in school

and stalk over some people that we clearly shouldn't have.

go crazy with other classmates,

make some stupid joke and laugh our lungs out.

omg.

only God knows how much i miss that moment.

how much i miss us.

bernice.ainur.me

hey, birthday girl :)

looking at this girl over here, i feel like im missing the part of you being so NOT you.

being so vain and all.

it is just something that i should NOT miss out on. 

anyhoww. 

i dont know what else i should write about.

i mean, how can i possibly describe you in words?

you are the person of the warmest heart of all and consider myself so lucky to have you as my friend.

whatever ups and downs that we are up to,

i want you to know that

i loveyou and respected you for the values that you have.

you know what, 

i think you deserved a big place in my heart too.

hearts.

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oi shahira zaini!

lets give a big hand to my comel friend here,

SHAHIRA ZAINI YANG GEMUK

thankyou for being there when noone else seems not to care.

thankyou for listening and cope with my shits.

but whateveritis, KAU TETAP GEMUK! :P

hearts

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senyumsenyum

if that was real, 

i really thank you, Allah.

:)

and that just made the best day of my entire life.

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*insert muka confuse here*

im in one of those moods,
that nothing is really wrong with my life.
but my brain keep insisting that there is.
or maybe its my heart that doing the insisting.
i cant really tell.

you know that feeling?
yes?
no?



argh! im outta here.
byebye

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without words

i hope i could read whatever you have there in your pretty little mind...

no matter how much you mess me up, 

i still miss you. 

and i effing hate myself for that. 

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dont forget to love yourself

i used to be so flexible, you know. i use to just accept people not being fair to me and do a little crying and just forgive and forget the whole freaking thing about it the next day. i used to be very paranoid about what people might think or might have said about this little things of my doings, what they might feel or something else.

that part of me have long gone.

i soon realize that WHY SHOULD I CARE SO MUCH WHEN THEY DONT EVEN TRY TO GIVE A DAMN?

i tend to love myself then, being selfish to people that tend to be selfish to me. i am just tired of being the one that been pushed around.

i can no more tolerate with people who only thinks about themselves. im tired. i want to spent time for myself.

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The Memories Remain

 saya nak tengok cerita Merong Mahawangsa boleh tak?

BOLEH TAK?

i think i really a day out. 

a break.

but i cant. 

i just cant have any.

assignments are piling up and all.

and i dont feel so good leaving it all.

even though i know i deserve some fun.

but i know all the work have to be done too.

i have to be professional.

...

*krik krik krik*

okay. post kali ni sebenarnya tak ada niat untuk berunsurkan ke-emo-an yang melampau seperti postpost emo yang lepas.

hihi

saya sebenarnya mahu bercerita tentang 

MAKHLUK TUHAN YANG TERAMATLAH INDAH YANG DIKURNIAKAN SUARA YANG LUNAK MENUSUK KALBU DI BAWAH INI

ANUAR ZAIN!

*sambil mata bersinarsinar*

ofcourse, when talking about anuarzain, 

even a guy could become GAY for him.

okay. that's too much.

all i want to say right here is that 

his new song, that he sang for the movie, Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa entitled Sedetik Lebih,

IS EXTRAORDINARY BEAUTIFUL.

i fell in love straight away.

i dont care what the different opinion you have on the song, 

but i just love the way he sang it.

and i just love the written lyrics of it.

enjoy.

you'll love it. but sure not as much as i do. :P

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away

dont try to find my facebook account, fellas.

i deactivate it.

i had a strange night yesterday.

very. rare.

i will be okay in a few ... i dont know.

but i will, apparently.

but dont worry, i will be back on facebook, soon enough :)

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untitled

you know that feeling?

when you're waiting

waiting to get home, into your room,

close the door, fall into bed,

and just let everything out that you kept in all day.

that feeling of both relief and desperation.

nothing is wrong.

but nothing is right either.

and you're tired.

tired of everything, tired of nothing.

and you just want someone

to be there and tell you it's okay.

but no one's going to be there.

and you know you have to be strong

for yourself, because no one can fix you.

but you're tired of waiting.

tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone and everything else.

tired of being strong.

and for once, you just want it to be easy.

to be simple. to be helped. to be saved.

but you know you wont be.

but you're still hoping.

and you're still wishing.

and you're still staying strong and fighting.

with tears in your eyes.

you're fighting.

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secret

i always looking forward for the sun to set down completely.

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