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Monday, January 31, 2011

bunyi cengkerik di Tun Puteri.

haha. mesti awesome gila kan dapat dengar bunyi cengkerik kat kolej Tun Puteri. sebab the fact is, kitorang tak pernah nak diam. jadi, inilah pengalaman saya pulang lewat ke kL sebab transportation terhad. -.- so, my roommate and i, jia, (thank God she took the ride with me if not i will be all alone dah) adalah orang yang terakhir left at bilik carpet tu. okay, ada kak mirza tapi she went off to kolej Tun Teja for a company sebab she's going off the next day.

so, at 9pm, my college dah macam...

KRIK. KRIK. KRIK

itu bunyi cengkerik, k. jangan confuse. hihi. sumpah sangat scary tau tak. dah la ade macam macam cerita lately dekat kolej tu. haish. first time merasa balik lambat and first time merasa kolej tun puteri sangat sunyi. @.@

along sampai around 9 almost 10 at night. dan oleh sebab saya terlalu excited nak balik, i just wore my toilet flipflops and hop into the car and left all my other footwear there. i mean ALL. awesome gilaa kan? -.-

so yea. itu lah pengalaman yang menakutkan gilaa terjadi kepada saya pada hari jumaat, 28 january yang lepas. tak cool tau tak. macam ape je. dah la balik lambat, scary yang amat, and tertinggal kasut pulak. maybe i do need a fourleaves clover. kan? ish ish ish.

im still upset though, sebab tak dapat ke pantai. shish, i want to go to the beach so badly okayy. it have been a while since i walk barefootedly on the beach. I WANT TO GO TO THE BEACH. i want to play by the water and watch sunset. :) mengada kan? ah, i dont care!

someone please take me there.

thankyou. :)

for being super awesome.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

What day is it? And in what month?

This clock never seemed so alive

I can't keep up and I can't back down

I've been losing so much time

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to lose

And it's you and me and all other people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

One of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right

I'm tripping on words

You've got my head spinning

I don't know where to go from here

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all other people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now

I can't quite figure out

Everything she does is beautiful

Everything she does is right

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to lose

And it's you and me and all other people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

and me and all other people with nothing to do

Nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all other people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?

And in what month?

This clock never seemed so alive

you just somehow amaze me.

thats all for tonight, have a good sleep everyone.

Friday, January 28, 2011

oh emm jii. :O

hey you.

SUMPAH YOU COMEL, K.

serious.

kdahbai.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

wah. lendu sangat indah. :D

dah nak dekat setengah tahun menetap kat lendu baru nak perasan indah ke tak kann? anyways. thank God that now, lendu is starting to be nice to me. thankyou lendu. i love you more than you think i do.

so, how am i? yeah, im doing great. things get a little messy at first but its okay now. assignments went well, friends have been okay and classes were great. everything is under control already. and i have been laughing a lot lately. i guess i got my laugh-out-loud charm back. :D

so im actually leaving two things behind. im leaving you and you. kenapa ah nak tinggaltinggal? eh, sukati la. hahaha. dah la. sometimes there are memories that worth to be deleted so that the future wont be dimmed by the past. haha. cool tak ayat saya :P

roommates have been awesome, k. lepak dengan diorang sangat awesome. for this month only, i have been going out alot. with roommates, with nasha and the friends from kL. i had serious fun and there is just so much more thing that have been putting a smile on my face too. hey. my life is great so far, k? ;)

so i might not turn out as pretty as you hope i'll be. maybe i look even worst after i cut off my hair. whatever. i like the way i look now and at least, AT LEAST, i did not pretend and fake myself out in order to fit in.

i did some stupid mistakes, but i understand that is a process of being smart. maybe then, i could commit SMART MISTAKE pulak. asyik stupid je kann. haha.
i forgive people not because that i am weak but because i feel that i am strong enough to understand that people make mistakes and understand that imperfections are a part of life.
i apologize not because i wanted to have that good impression on me but because i know that i did something wrong and i dont want if something ends there, it have to end miserably.

but yeah, at times, i pretend to be happy when the situations says otherwise.
and at times, i feel absolutely miserable when i actually have A LOT MORE OTHER REASONS to feel otherwise. :)

sometimes we just have to see beyond ordinary.
sometimes its just there for us, and we are just so blinded to see.
sometimes, LIFE CAN BE TREMENDOUSLY great, only if we have decided to see beyond the flaws.

I AM FREAKING HAPPY OKAY. with or without you, I FEEL JUST GREAT. :)

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

because when you finally don't know what to do, you can just HOPE that everything is going to be okay.

wahh. panjangnya post title. -.-

so yea. at this moment here, i have no freaking idea what to do.

it is like everything went well but it doesn't feel like it. macam ade je yang tak kene.

Monday, January 24, 2011

suhaida sulaiman, sumpah kau bodoh. -.-

i know that we make mistakes, SERIOUSLY STUPID IDIOTIC MISTAKE. but somehow, i cant seem to just let go of it. its still hurt, tho. i have no freaking idea why. damn yeah, i am stupid. sumpah bodoh. tak pernah rasa sebodoh ni -.-

the mistake is not the decision on letting you go, but letting you in.

from now on,

I, SUHAIDA SULAIMAN, DO SOLEMNLY SWEAR, THAT I NEVER GIVE A DAMNN ABOUT YOU ANYMORE AND NOT LETTING YOU TO PUSH ME DOWN ANYMORE.

it is my freaking turn to be happy. oh, wait, I AM HAPPY. thankkyouverymuch.