hey beautiful people!

be strong, and everything else will fall into places :)

have a good day.

and goodluck for your upcoming exams.

how am i?

i am tremendously fine.

never felt better. :D

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i dont know why

i have too many reasons to hate you.

but you still have me holding on.

for some reason, i just couldn't seem to understand. 

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tentang seseorang atau dua orang,

awak, lain kali kalau awak macam tak nak text saya ke apa,  cakap ajela.

tak payah nak tibatiba buat alasan tak ada mood la bagai.

macam saya kisah sangat pulak kalau awak tak nak text saya ke apa.

NEXT TIME, SAY IT RIGHT TO MY FACE, OKAY?

nampak tak ada orang tengah emo sekarang. NAMPAK TAK? hahaha. i bet he/she tak ada la emo sangat. cuma kadangkadang bengang dengan orang yang self-centered ni, tau tak self-centered tu ape? itu namanya PENTINGKAN DIRI SENDIRI, ye rakanrakan.

jadi, topik kita harini ialah, SELF-CENTERED PEOPLE, atau ORANG YANG MEMENTINGKAN DIRINYA SENDIRI. *tetibe kan.

well, i know, at some point, at alot of points actually, we have to consider ourselves up. i have one great person once said to me. before you love anyone else, learn to love yourself with your fully heart first, so that you wont put this person to your priority and do something not fair to yourself if you, perhaps, reach at that point where you are going to lose him/her. that is where you have to be selfish. LOVE YOURSELF FIRST. because you are worth to be treated well by yourself too. maybe when nobody else actually cares, that is what your heart and body and soul needed you the most. be strong for yourself. sometimes, noone else actually even care about you. NO ONE. so be selfish and love yourself more.

i have been surrounded by self-centered people lately. the kind of people that tend to do something that could hurt someone either deeply or just a scratch or just bring up the total anger of someone else, and yet, expecting others to understand them instead of having them thinking what other people might think or feel. sometimes, yes, we make mistakes, we tend to do something that seems so selfish but then you not completely realize that you are hurting someone. well then, when you realize your mistake, please dont be so egoistic and wait for them to came up to you and beg to your knees for your attention and forgiveness.

because baby, it wont happen.

so this kind of selfishness is not tolerable. especially when it comes together with a little something called EGO. oh yes, everyone have a little bit of that one (ego) but the capacity of it in individuals that make it different.

at some cases, ada je rasa macam nak campak kerusi and see you DIE.

okay tak lah. i'm not that mean.

you know what, sometimes i wish.. i wish i will fall in love with someone that have had his heart broken before. so that he will understand the pain and will not tend to broke mine. and at a lot of times, i wish that those people that had once make me feel like .... will someday feel what i felt. it is all about karma. you get what you give.


hey beautiful people,
if you are hurt, if you feel the constant pain,
please just remember that you are not alone.
and just be grateful that it is better to be hurt than to not feel anything at all.

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...

the honest truth is,

i really do miss what we almost had.

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who cares, baby, i think i wanna marry you :D

my post title up here is from the song 

MARRY YOU - BRUNO MARS.

oh yes, it is a nice pretty song and sung beautifully by the good looking him.

but i personally think that the song is kinna stupid.

come on, marriage is not something dumb to do.

you cant just come up and say,

"i think i wanna marry you"

macam ape je -.-

oh well, the song still sound pretty good tho, no matter how stupid i think the lyrics is.

anyhoww. i am bored. alone in the room because two of my roomies have gone home.

and the other went out with my jiran.

i am stuck intheroom trying to straighten things out. 

i have activated my facebook back. :D

oh yes, you can just click at my facebook batch at the side of the page, it will lead you straight to my profile.

oh and if i dont seem to know you and you would like to add me up, you just send me a message first.

because i dont um accept request from random people.

i know facebook can be really hurtful sometimes,

but it somehow helped me taking my blindfold off.

i should thank the whole lot to facebook.

i think, if it is not for facebook, i would be dumbly believing that asshole still.

YES DUDE, I AM CALLING YOU ASSHOLE AND I HATE YOU.

congratulations for that.

anyways, no more emo posts from me.

atleast not in this short term.

i am learning to be strong and 

and nobody worth my tears anymore.

there is nothing wrong with me or my life.

it is just not the time for me yet.

just not yet.

if you're okay with me not wanting you in my life.

that just means that you want exactly the same.

and yes, i dont want you in my life anymore.

thankyou for finding your way out of my life.

thanks a whole lot.

 i just put this video up because i have been hearing this song all day and also while im writing this post. i just thought i should give this song an honor for helping me relieving the pain. :)

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127am

it is 127am in the morning and im still awake.
um.
i feel fat.
o.O

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confession

you broke my heart. 

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because i have issues with people that make me feel like the stupidest person on earth.

i am not a 4yearold kid that you can lie straight to my face.

i am not that random girl by the street that you can just took her heart and make a whole fun of it.

i am not something that is made without feelings.

i am not just something else.

i am not just someone else.

i am the one that you once given me some kind of hope.

the one that thought you are just a lil bit different and perhaps a lot more interesting than others.

it turns out you being just another assholes that i always met by the streets.

dear you,

eh, who the hell you think you are ah? you think you can have EVERY FUCKING THING THAT YOU WANT? you can boss people around and tell them what to do and what not to do? you can have other people to be careful of what you might think or feel, but then you throw SHITS in return? 

hey, human being...

i am a person with heart, feelings and A FREAKING BRAIN, you know.

i sure as hell that i deserve better than this. 

i am so effed up with people that make me feel like the the most idiotic creature in this entire universe.

especially when i have decided to TRUST you.

it HURTS, you know.

but whatthehell, i dont think you even know what that means.

terimakasihbanyakbanyak. :)

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heartless?

i think if i am not being a bit heartless, 

i think i may hate the whole you right now.

i have to be heartless to cope with your attitude.

and i just hate the fact that i still want to stick around you.

i seriously fucking hate myself for that.

you should have successfully make me hate you right now.

why oh why?

and i am not heartless.

i have been hurt pretty badly too.

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i want to. but...

i am tired of being the one that have to becareful about your feelings.

when you just dont seems to give a damn.

be a little considerate.

if i am to take care of everyone else's feelings,

what about mine?

i am just tired of being NOT important to everyone.

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